Farewell

I am heading overseas tomorrow morning, so I won't be able to post anything till I return. But ya, I promise to post on my experience overseas when I get back. So, stay tuned! 8 days from now...

Spooky Feed #29

"Always the tone of surprise." - Ron to Hermione + Hermione to Ron

I had this strange dream today morning when I was still asleep. This is how it goes...
Me: Albus? (though I had absolutely no idea why I would call him that instead of Professor Dumbledore)
Dumbledore: Oh! Come take a seat. You see, Voldemort is going to take over the wizarding world
(He held the Elder Wand towards me)
Me: That would be taken by him too.
Him: Really? I would like you to have it.
Me: (stunned) (coz I saw You-Know-Who just about three metres away from me and the Prof.)
Him: Take this wand and escape to the "Student Council Room"
(then I realised we were outside the Bethel Hall in my school instead of Hogwarts)
Me: Student Council Room? What!? (half-eyeing the approaching Dark Lord)
(I then took the Elder Wand and ran towards the rightside stairs)
Voldemort: Reducto!! (WTH!? I thought he was going to use Avada Kedavra. And why the hell does he want to use Reducto?)
Me: (waved the Elder Wand behind me) Protego!
(Still I got hit and I coughed out blood)
Voldemort: Now gimme the wand.
Me: Fine! Why so serious?
(He gave me that funny look on his face)
Then I woke up, half-expecting the Prof. to decipher my dream (connection with Lord Voldemort) and Snape to teach me Occlumency.

Spooky Feed #28

Ahh, but the dice cannot read their own spots. - Bijaz

I'm tired. Tired from all these things. Both physically and psychologically. I seriously have had enough of this nonsense. No matter how hard you try to pull, you could never pull a person up from dropping into a endless pit if that person had already submitted to his fate and did not make any effort to continue living on. It's really pathetic. No matter what advice you give, he would listen yet not make any effort to change and only drown himself with sorrow. It really pisses me off whenever I see this kind of people. God gave them life. They simply took everything for granted and not do anything to live up his expectations. At least live a good life. Have something in your life worth living for. No matter where you fall at, pick yourself up. There are people out there who have suffered much more. They have suffered from loss of loved ones to natural disasters, wars, famine, droughts and all the unhappy events, suffered from terminal diseases, with little time left to live, suffered from financial crisis. Yet they pick themselves up and left their past behind them. If they have been through so much and made it through, why can't you? I don't care whether if it's a terrible business failure, matters over love, relationships with family and friends, scoring badly for your exams, getting sacked from your job, or any other setbacks, serious or minor. Accept it. Forgive yourself. Move on in life.

Spooky Feed #27

I have said: "Blow out the lamp! Day is here!" And you keep saying: "Give me a lamp so I can find the day." - Bijaz to Hayt

In the end you still came back. Returned from your trip. With the bonds between you two as a couple stronger than ever. I expected it anyway. I'm glad you had returned safe and sound. It's your 2nd anniversary huh? Congratulations. After all, what can I do? Life still goes on... I will be fine.
Another thing is that my friend lost the bet. If you had actually viewed my posts, you would have understood what I meant. I'm not eyeing that "Latest Playstation at that point of time", my point is that he has confirmed it himself. He is being avoided by the girl he loved. She doesn't seem happy with him around her. As in, she was normal and could laugh like usual then until he came forward and she just... became quiet and ignored him. Imagine how he felt when he'd understood what's going on. I'm not trying to boast but I'd already foreseen this. Worse, he wanted to end his life. I, of course, tried talking to him and prevented it. But it was a huge blow to him. I really don't know how I am supposed to... tell him why. I just got that feeling that he still don't quite understand even though he acts like he does. *sigh*, life is like that huh? Always making fun of people.

Spooky Feed #26

I would wait till forever just so we could be together. If only you weren't so blind to see, how much you truly mean to me. - Anonymous

You flew away. Flew away from Singapore, flew away from your home, flew away from your society, flew away from me. You went to Hong Kong, together with your boyfriend, enjoying yourselves there. Do you have any idea how much it hurts? I surrender man. I'm not gonna fight fate anymore. I'm resigned to fate. I've always thought that I might stand a chance but that's too silly, huh? I mean, how could I not know that there's no chance of us getting together? I'm just being to silly, too naive. And silly me actually prayed that you would be safe and you would enjoy yourself there. That's ridiculous huh? It's been a full 6 years and still countin'. Maybe I shouldn't love you in the 1st place huh? Just imagine you and your boyfriend having fun together on holiday in another country? I felt like I just got shot by a sniper rifle, the high caliber bullet type. Or maybe I just didn't love you enough? Coz' I didn't have the what it takes to be your man? Coz' I didn't have the courage? I can't turn back time. I can't look up to the new moon night sky neither can I close my eyes. Why? Coz' you will appear in the skies and in my heart. I just can't let you go. If my love for you grows deeper every second, just imagine me loving you for 6 years. I'm pretty sure the roots would be really deep. Perhaps 6 miles into the ground? Try plucking the giant tree out then. I've studied Physics. I estimate you'll need a force of 60000000000000000 Newton (to 1 significant figure).

Spooky Feed #25

Don't Just Play. Play With Heart. - Lebron James

I Pledge My Heart To The Game.
To Play Every Moment With Passion,
To Be Loyal To Those Who Are Loyal To Me,
To Be Clutch With No Back Up Plan,
To Have The Pure Drive To Win,
To Show Resilience In The Struggle,
Humility In The Spotlight,
And The Magnetism To Be Never Forgotten.

Today I've pledged myself to the game. The game of Basketball. Of coz' I didn't think that I would really become a great player in the game, or have the opportunity to go to NBA. But this pledge really is meaningful. Hitting the courts, slashing to the glass, and dropping threes have been my favourite hobby during these times. No matter how awful you play on the court, respect the game that have shook the world. Play it with passion. Respect the players who are 'noob' too. Always remember, you are not born a pro, you were there once. Of coz' don't use all this only in Basketball, remember it and use it effectively in every aspect of life.

Spooky Feed #24

You do not take from this universe. It grants you what it will. - Paul Muad'dib

Many events had happened over these few days, that's why I haven't been able to post much recently. Finally, the CmPS Nationals are over... Can finally take a breather and relax... Been really exhausted from all these activites, be it the Sec 3 Extended Lessons, Rehearsals for performance during the ZhuHai trip, CmPS Nationals... Another course is probably coming up for me next week. Haven't been really able to have some rest. However the few leisure activites I had always cheer me up: Basketball, joking and of coz' this laptop I'm using right now. Alright enough about my recent activites, let's go to the main point of this post. There's this guy I know as a friend who is always upset about his life. He had went through several ups and downs throughout his life till now. He is not really good in exams, is not musically talented, not rich, not charismatic, not "good-looking" and a whole lot of stuff I didn't bother to name. "Just not good enough". This post is dedicated to him. I hope that he could really understand that we can't take whatever we want from this world. It is our fate to be who we were, who we are and who we will be. Our identity serves God's purpose for us. So don't be sad when you aint what you wanna be, or you didn't get what you desired.

Spooky Feed #23

Think you of the fact that a deaf person cannot hear. Then, what deafness may we not all possess? What senses do we lack that we cannot see and cannot hear another world all around us? - The Orange Catholic Bible

I always see people here crying out "FML", see people there groaning about the tons of homework, one scolding the teacher for being too strict and another condemning the teacher for lousy teaching. Not just in the educational zone, but in many other areas in life too. I hear complains on the food for being too oily or tasteless and so on... I witness a girl complaining about her looks and stuff, seen another guy unhappy because his beloved one did not like him. Seen another upset with his family, while another totally screwed up his studies big time and was so down and depressed. Sounds familiar? Hating this, disliking that, upset with this, not satisfied with that. I guess you all should understand that people tend to be like "Why must this happen?" or "It's not good enough."... When I saw this kind of things, I can't help but think of the hundred of thousands or millions suffering out there either because of natural disasters or environment or illness. People ARE suffering out there. Suffer you ask? From what? From the tons of homework? Or the bad taste of food? Or from the irritating people we've met? Or because of 'not good enough' looks and stuff? Nope. They are suffering due to the lack of basic needs such as food and water. Suffering due to the lack of nutritions. Suffering due to serious diseases. Suffering due to the loss of their homes, their livelihood. Even suffering due to the loss of loved ones, be it friends or family. Those kind of suffering... You may have witnessed it on the news or the television. But unless you have experienced it before, you would never fully understand how it feels like. OUR suffering? Homework? Hey look, some or most kids from less-developed countries did not even have the chance to have education! If you think it's good for them as they won't need to tire themselves out doing the tons of homework, I assure you, those people would jump at the chance to have education so that they could go to work in the future to support themselves and their family. Food that does not meet our expectations? Crap. There are people out there in desperate need of food in order to survive. They need food for survival, not to enjoy it. If you really think that your life is screwed up over and over again, think again. Face reality, we are leading a far more comfortable life than a lot of unfortunate people. The fact is that people living comfortable lives tend to not be satisfied with whatever they have, they still want more and expect more. C'mon, even if we don't sympathise those people suffering, at least be content with what you already have.

Spooky Feed #22

Words are magic. - Zufa Cenva

Today's the 1st day of the 2-week Extended Lessons intended for all Secondary 3 students. It wasn't really a good start. Why? I've found myself trying hard to stay awake and focused during Math lesson. The ultimate test: O-Levels will arrive at our doorstep in less than a year's time. The people may still think they've still got time to revise and buck up but not me. I'm serious about scoring in my O-Levels next year. Dead serious. Enough about my studies, let's talk about something else that happened today. After the Extended Lessons today, I gotta learn dance from my Mother Tongue teacher to perform at the farewell party during the Zhuhai trip. Man, it's crap and stuff. I've slipped away of course. Then I ran over to the basketball court, where my friends were already playing. Then it was basketball till 3:20pm. Me, Bryan Cheo and John then went over to the nearby bubble tea shop to grab a drink to quench our thirst. In the process, we talked about anime and stuff. The catch is this, we actually played 'Truth or Dare'!! Imagine how fun it would be playing with 3 guys. Fun? A bit. But we miraculously killed time until 6pm! Man, it was pretty cool to be able to even have some fun playing with 2 other guys. We'd all chose 'Truth'. Why? Coz' we did not intend to pull any crazy stunt or a silly prank. However, it was still not bad considering playing with 2 other guys like I've said. Man, the questions we asked... Incredible.