Hammer

Expect only what happens in the fight. That way you'll never be surprised. - recollected from Duncan Idaho, the Swordsmaster of the Ginaz, by Paul


Been quite a long time since my previous post. My excuse this time? Laziness. Plus my official addiction to the popular Korean variety show - Running Man. Hey, call me slow but I really got addicted to it. I was very interested in it in the past, but not at this rate. Watching episodes after episodes (Still I've only watched about 20) at every chance I get. Heh, I was watching another episode when I got home from college today.


Did I mention college? Ya, obviously school's back and holiday's up. I have to congratulate myself for surviving the first two days of the new semester. With a new timetable that's pretty much the same save for a few "minor" but somehow annoying tweaks, it's just school all over again. My class is still intact, my teachers(including a new one) got back and are gonna stay long-term with us (at least till we promote), the school is still standing along Champions Way, the stress and fatigue still continue to pile up, the weather's becoming more and more of a bitch, and I still fall asleep during Math tutorial. Extraordinarily Ordinary.


Still there are stuff the entire J1 cohort is sure worried about when we got back to school on the very first week of this new term. Apparently the most pressing issue for all of us is the release of our summer test results. Look at the title of this post again. Nope I'm not the hammer. I'm getting hammered. I got back my History results first, since it was the first actual lesson of the day. Since the subject's my forte, I'm feeling confident that I can score a 40/60. I'm pretty prepared excluding the South East Asia part, and did the paper without breaking any sweat. I thought I did pretty fine at least. Though the results are still not confirmed since the teachers are reassessing it, I scored a pitiful 33/60. Barely over the passing mark. And that's one of my confident subjects. Sigh... Disappointment...


Next up is H1 Mother Tongue. This time I had really high hopes. I am the top scorer for Chinese in secondary school. Well, I could've been the top. It's because I purposely flopped a test which was set after the O-Level paper, and there's no need to take it seriously anymore. And here in Innova Junior College, undoubtedly, I'm still at the higher end of the bell curve. I'm the king. The public enemy. The target. The pacer. Whatever you call it. I should be at the front somewhere. And the papers are still pretty darn easy this time round. I thought I completely killed it. Here's the thing, "I thought". I did pretty fine in Paper 2, comprising of the comprehension and the close-passage. 57/80. Well, my level of standard though I could've scored more. It was due to careless mistakes everywhere and the stupid summary which I can't hit more than 4/12. Never mind that. Still almost every one I'm closer with scored about the same range as me. There were people who were higher than me. For now, I must emphasise. But the real problem is my Paper 1. Composition. Actually, I was pretty confident of my essay. I know what I'm writing, and I know that I'm gonna score above average. I'm not very strong in writing essays but I do have a flair for it. So I was kinda hoping that the teacher would give out the Paper 1 first before Paper 2. But the paper was placed in front of me and I can't believe the score. 32/60. What? That's my all-time low. Even if I'd played a fool with my essays in the past, I'd never scored this low. And for an essay that I'm confident in, it's complete heresy I must say. I realised my mistake, and I shouldn't be penalised that harshly. C'mon, 32/60? Man, it was a pure embarrassment that I don't even wanna think about it. God, it's Chinese. The one subject which I'm almost guaranteed an A grade. So utterly disappointed.


Well, there's more. H1 Math. This is another easy paper. Besides forgetting a certain formula which appeared in my previous class test, I pretty much did everything without much difficulty. Or I thought so. I was hoping for an A grade if not a B. But there's this ominous feeling I have when I received my paper. Oh. 27/50? How in the world did I get that kinda score. I had done revision with a group of classmates, verified my doubts, revising here and there, and the paper turned out to be rather simple and similar to our tests. 27/50 is outta of my imagination. And the culprit? Mistakes so careless that anyone would have rammed their heads of the brick wall if they have done anything similar to mine. I missed out the entire question 1b, simply because I either didn't spot it, or I rushed to the other questions first. 6 marks flew away. Another mistake: supposed to be an 8, I wrote 7. OMG, how did I do that? If there was any careless mistake I made that rivalled that, it would be when I forget to add the decimal point(just that bloody ) dotin my answer(a correct one) in primary four. That one caused me my FULL MARKS for the EXAM. And careless here and there all around the paper. There goes my hopeful 38/50, coming back with another barely passed grade. 


Could it be because I tweeted "Pride comes before fall. Never forget that." like during the exam period that I got this kind of results? It's so wasted since I could have done way better. How way? WAY way. I feel like I lost a precious opportunity to shine and to prove to my parents that I'm firm and confident in my studies in a JC environment. So I had to strive harder for my Mid-Course examinations (my promotion exam), so as to ensure my promotion to J2, as well as to ensure that my J1 foundation is secure and firm. And there's still Econs and GP papers to arrive soon. And Econs... happened to be the most difficult H2 paper. And the one which I sacrificed my revision time... for my friend's concert. Please lemme pass this time round.... 


And oh yes, Good luck to every other JC students out there having their Block tests this week!


P.S. Oh, did I mention that I've passed my Literature summer test for the first time ever? XD still I barely passed. What's up with the trend of just scraping over the passing mark nowadays?