My father once told me that respect for the truth comes close to being the basis for all morality. "Something cannot emerge from nothing," he said. This is profound thinking if you understand how unstable "the truth" can be. - from Conversations with Muad'Dib by the Princess Irulan
That bet I've made with Alvin, was supposed to escalate things into a higher level (not really, though). I wondered what he has done to keep his end of his bargain. He was supposed to... date her and hopefully marry her. What are the winnings? If he dates and marries her, I will have to buy THEM a bottle of whiskey (I don't even know whether we would even be drinking alcohol by then) as a wedding gift on their wedding. If not, I'll get the latest PlayStation at that point of time from him. Sounds great? I'm willing to buy them a wedding gift on their wedding of course. But he will suffer if he loses. He'd better not lose this gamble. Truth will be revealed 13 years later. And I'll be waiting.
Utakata Hanabi
Sasuke x Sakura
Saturday, October 30, 2010
Thursday, October 28, 2010
Apologies
I'm sorry for not posting much nowadays for you viewers as I'm kinda really busy and filled with exhaustion everytime I sit down in front of my computer to write a post due to entering a National Competition (unwillingly, and not sports by the way). I'll try to post as much as I can.
Saturday, October 23, 2010
Spooky Feed #20
If you believe certain words, you believe their hidden arguments. When you believe something is right or wrong, true or false, you believe the assumptions in the words which express the arguments. Such assumptions are often full of holes, but remain most precious to the convinced. - The Open-Ended Proof from The Panoplia Prophetica
Haven't been updating my blog for the past few days. I'm either too busy, or simply forgot to update it or too exhausted. There's actually a day when I was so exhausted from my basketball match and stuff that I slept at 7pm. Well, I'm finally updating it today. Today was not really an eventful day after all. "John Avery", "SpirAlvin" and I actually went to VivoCity for a short while before finally deciding to go the usual internet cafe at Bugis. Upon reaching there, we found out that there was no space for three. Then we went to the arcade just next to the cafe and started playing a game. After that, I played Time Crisis 4 myself. You know something? I actually lost two out of three lives during the PROLOGUE!! What impressive statistics for a professional Time Crisis 4 gamer like me who had finished the game without help with just one try before. The real reason behind my demise twice was the problem with the pedal and the gun itself. I did my best and held out till the last stage area 1 then a helicopter took my last life. Damn! Following the arcade, we strolled to Suntec City and had our usual dinner there. There... What we discussed was absolute EPIC. I don't wanna talk about it here as I might really get into trouble. Alright, enough with the stuff I did. The main reason for posting is about this "SpirAlvin". Alright, this guy was the friend I was referring to in Spooky Feed #17. This guy finally decided to ask her out for a date after hearing my advice and stuff. This guy told me that there's six other people in his school telling him that "she already likes him". I don't like the tone of that as it could be just teasing. Really hope he would not get rejected...
Haven't been updating my blog for the past few days. I'm either too busy, or simply forgot to update it or too exhausted. There's actually a day when I was so exhausted from my basketball match and stuff that I slept at 7pm. Well, I'm finally updating it today. Today was not really an eventful day after all. "John Avery", "SpirAlvin" and I actually went to VivoCity for a short while before finally deciding to go the usual internet cafe at Bugis. Upon reaching there, we found out that there was no space for three. Then we went to the arcade just next to the cafe and started playing a game. After that, I played Time Crisis 4 myself. You know something? I actually lost two out of three lives during the PROLOGUE!! What impressive statistics for a professional Time Crisis 4 gamer like me who had finished the game without help with just one try before. The real reason behind my demise twice was the problem with the pedal and the gun itself. I did my best and held out till the last stage area 1 then a helicopter took my last life. Damn! Following the arcade, we strolled to Suntec City and had our usual dinner there. There... What we discussed was absolute EPIC. I don't wanna talk about it here as I might really get into trouble. Alright, enough with the stuff I did. The main reason for posting is about this "SpirAlvin". Alright, this guy was the friend I was referring to in Spooky Feed #17. This guy finally decided to ask her out for a date after hearing my advice and stuff. This guy told me that there's six other people in his school telling him that "she already likes him". I don't like the tone of that as it could be just teasing. Really hope he would not get rejected...
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
Spooky Feed #19
Your original unselfish choice fills you now with selfishness. - Leto's Inner Voices
Got back the results of Chemistry and A-Math today. Just barely passed Chemistry: Already a joyous moment for me. Then... Failed A-Math badly. *Sigh* Forget it, forget it... Let's talk about something else. During recess today, me and my usual friends grouped up together and chatted like we did, then the subject came to love. I went quiet (sucking from a straw to the packet drink), while the rest targeted Bryan Cheo. Gavin who was sooooo 'successful' in wooing a girl and sooooo arrogant that he did it like it was nothing, tried to 'impart his skills' to Bryan. It was mentioned that Bryan's special someone recently kinda broke up, and Gavin and the others were strongly persuading him to "occupy the space while it's empty". Bryan rejected the idea strongly even after so much persuasion. Then there begin where Chong Jin muttered "Bryan, your ValVal". Bryan was annoyed at that remark for a couple of seconds until he looked at me (I recall that I was looking down and drinking my drink). As I was looking down, I didn't see any fingers pointed at me when Chong Jin remarked that keyword a second time. "Oh ya, BX yours also right?" Bryan commented. I simply nodded my head. At that time, Yi Da pointed out that my case was a failure while Gavin's was highly successful. I was reminded of my painful memories once again. After the entire discussion, Bryan and I had a 1-on-1 talk. Having been in the same situation once, I understood why he didn't want to just "occupy the space while it's empty".
"You didn't want to, coz' you think you ain't good enough for her right?"
"Ya." Bryan replied.
"You could improve yourself. However, the opportunity may already have left you." I told him.
The words I spoke, were the exact words that I've told myself at least half a decade ago. My second sentence, was exactly what happened to me. It was a unselfish choice when I chose to not confess... It was unselfish when I found out that she had a boyfriend and yet gave them my blessings silently. It was unselfish when I discovered that they broke up and I did nothing but worry about her feelings and emotions. It was unselfish when I found out that they patched up and swallowed my feelings once again. I tried my best to let go of you, But I can't...
Got back the results of Chemistry and A-Math today. Just barely passed Chemistry: Already a joyous moment for me. Then... Failed A-Math badly. *Sigh* Forget it, forget it... Let's talk about something else. During recess today, me and my usual friends grouped up together and chatted like we did, then the subject came to love. I went quiet (sucking from a straw to the packet drink), while the rest targeted Bryan Cheo. Gavin who was sooooo 'successful' in wooing a girl and sooooo arrogant that he did it like it was nothing, tried to 'impart his skills' to Bryan. It was mentioned that Bryan's special someone recently kinda broke up, and Gavin and the others were strongly persuading him to "occupy the space while it's empty". Bryan rejected the idea strongly even after so much persuasion. Then there begin where Chong Jin muttered "Bryan, your ValVal". Bryan was annoyed at that remark for a couple of seconds until he looked at me (I recall that I was looking down and drinking my drink). As I was looking down, I didn't see any fingers pointed at me when Chong Jin remarked that keyword a second time. "Oh ya, BX yours also right?" Bryan commented. I simply nodded my head. At that time, Yi Da pointed out that my case was a failure while Gavin's was highly successful. I was reminded of my painful memories once again. After the entire discussion, Bryan and I had a 1-on-1 talk. Having been in the same situation once, I understood why he didn't want to just "occupy the space while it's empty".
"You didn't want to, coz' you think you ain't good enough for her right?"
"Ya." Bryan replied.
"You could improve yourself. However, the opportunity may already have left you." I told him.
The words I spoke, were the exact words that I've told myself at least half a decade ago. My second sentence, was exactly what happened to me. It was a unselfish choice when I chose to not confess... It was unselfish when I found out that she had a boyfriend and yet gave them my blessings silently. It was unselfish when I discovered that they broke up and I did nothing but worry about her feelings and emotions. It was unselfish when I found out that they patched up and swallowed my feelings once again. I tried my best to let go of you, But I can't...
Monday, October 18, 2010
Spooky Feed #18
The most persistent principles of the universe were accident and error. - The last thought of Kynes before he died of a dust whirlpool caused by a pre-mass spice gas explosion.
Time sure flies. I recall posting last Thursday on "Tomorrow is the FIRST day of checking EOY exam scripts", and here I am now posting on "Tomorrow is the LAST day of checking EOY scripts". Alright, let's talk about what happened the first two days first. I got back my Mother Tongue paper (Chinese) and scored above average (However, although I scored only ABOVE AVERAGE, I kinda pwned almost if not the entire school. This kind of things often happen during my secondary school life.), got back my Combined Humanities paper and failed the overall by 2%. I'm hoping that the other scores from the last semester and term would pull me up to passing grade though. Today, I've got back Physics paper and I made it!!! I've passed my Physics!! Finally! Then Geography paper comes next, and my intuition already told me that I wouldn't pass and I didn't. Then English Language is up next: Results show that I've successfully passed the important subject. After that I got back the E-Math paper. E-Math results were weird. Paper 2 was supposed to be a lot tougher than Paper 1 (which almost the entire Secondary 3 cohort thought was fairly easy: I meant Paper 1) then many scored a lot higher in Paper 1 then in Paper 2. But my case is weird. I actually failed Paper 1 by 2 marks!! Yet I kinda pwned quite a number of people by scoring 71/100 by my Paper 2. How could someone score higher for the tougher paper than the a lot easier one? That's me. It was due to several errors and careless mistakes that I failed my paper 1... Tomorrow is coming up fast: We are gonna get back our Chemistry and A-Math Papers tomorrow. Hope that I did secure a satisfactory score in both papers.
Time sure flies. I recall posting last Thursday on "Tomorrow is the FIRST day of checking EOY exam scripts", and here I am now posting on "Tomorrow is the LAST day of checking EOY scripts". Alright, let's talk about what happened the first two days first. I got back my Mother Tongue paper (Chinese) and scored above average (However, although I scored only ABOVE AVERAGE, I kinda pwned almost if not the entire school. This kind of things often happen during my secondary school life.), got back my Combined Humanities paper and failed the overall by 2%. I'm hoping that the other scores from the last semester and term would pull me up to passing grade though. Today, I've got back Physics paper and I made it!!! I've passed my Physics!! Finally! Then Geography paper comes next, and my intuition already told me that I wouldn't pass and I didn't. Then English Language is up next: Results show that I've successfully passed the important subject. After that I got back the E-Math paper. E-Math results were weird. Paper 2 was supposed to be a lot tougher than Paper 1 (which almost the entire Secondary 3 cohort thought was fairly easy: I meant Paper 1) then many scored a lot higher in Paper 1 then in Paper 2. But my case is weird. I actually failed Paper 1 by 2 marks!! Yet I kinda pwned quite a number of people by scoring 71/100 by my Paper 2. How could someone score higher for the tougher paper than the a lot easier one? That's me. It was due to several errors and careless mistakes that I failed my paper 1... Tomorrow is coming up fast: We are gonna get back our Chemistry and A-Math Papers tomorrow. Hope that I did secure a satisfactory score in both papers.
Sunday, October 17, 2010
Spooky Feed #17
Anything outside yourself, this you can see and apply your logic to it. But it's a human trait that when we encounter personal problems, these things most deeply personal are the most difficult to bring out for our logic to scan. We tend to flounder around, blaming everything but the actual, deep-seated thing that's really chewing on us. - Jessica speaking to Thufir Hawat
I'm not gonna write anything on what happened today. It's quite irrelevant anyways. If anything, I wanna write about something else. I'm gonna write about a friend. There's this friend trying to woo a girl that he likes. He kinda have difficulties in the wooing process. He seeked advice from me, which I gave. After some discussion, he decided to buy the girl a pendant as a birthday gift. As his friend, I've advised that he not present her the gift yet, maybe next year when they have a stable foundation in their relationship so that the gift may be announced as a wooing gift. After much consideration, he decided to continue to give the pendant to her. It just so happens that he gave her the pendant right before the 1-week September school holidays. On a day nearing the end of the short school holidays, I've told him that after the school holidays, something either positive or negative is gonna happen to him due to his actions. The first two weeks seemed fine and "nothing" sorta happened. However, recently the girl seems to be ignoring and avoiding him. Naturally, He'd feel disappointed and down. He's considering giving up wooing her. He just seems to blame a lot of stuffs, including himself. Should I, as a friend, tell him? I'm not sure myself.
I'm not gonna write anything on what happened today. It's quite irrelevant anyways. If anything, I wanna write about something else. I'm gonna write about a friend. There's this friend trying to woo a girl that he likes. He kinda have difficulties in the wooing process. He seeked advice from me, which I gave. After some discussion, he decided to buy the girl a pendant as a birthday gift. As his friend, I've advised that he not present her the gift yet, maybe next year when they have a stable foundation in their relationship so that the gift may be announced as a wooing gift. After much consideration, he decided to continue to give the pendant to her. It just so happens that he gave her the pendant right before the 1-week September school holidays. On a day nearing the end of the short school holidays, I've told him that after the school holidays, something either positive or negative is gonna happen to him due to his actions. The first two weeks seemed fine and "nothing" sorta happened. However, recently the girl seems to be ignoring and avoiding him. Naturally, He'd feel disappointed and down. He's considering giving up wooing her. He just seems to blame a lot of stuffs, including himself. Should I, as a friend, tell him? I'm not sure myself.
Thursday, October 14, 2010
Spooky Feed #16
It occurred to Paul then that he had seen his own dead body along countless reaches of the time web, but never once had he seen his moment of death. - The Collected Sayings of Muad'dib by the Princess Irulan
Tomorrow is the first day of the checking of End-Of-Year exam scripts. A long time before the exams, before the preparations for the exams, before the final school term of this year even started, even before the September school holidays, just right after the minute that my father had told me "Find a way to catch up your results yourself" when I had shown him my Term 3 result slip, I have already have that vision: That vision of me sitting among the ranks of students sitting according to their classes, waiting... For the papers that we have written and drawn on during our exam periods... The papers we've worked so hard for. I've been through the process before, and I will go through it once more... For the last time this year, I am getting back the papers tomorrow, next Monday and Tuesday. Excited? Nope. I'd rather not go through it. Why? Because getting back the papers meant either having the glory of scoring high and exceeding your own expectations or huge disappointment in yourself and the results and sorrow. Did Harry felt the same when he saw the owls that brought his, Ron's and Hermione's O.W.Ls results? I'm already anticipating what's gonna happen tomorrow and what scores I will get, but I assume it's negative to a large extent. Been playing basketball and games hard to tire myself out and not think about that fateful day which has just about 3 more hours to go. However, what's to come will eventually come.... Might as well get it over and done with.
Tomorrow is the first day of the checking of End-Of-Year exam scripts. A long time before the exams, before the preparations for the exams, before the final school term of this year even started, even before the September school holidays, just right after the minute that my father had told me "Find a way to catch up your results yourself" when I had shown him my Term 3 result slip, I have already have that vision: That vision of me sitting among the ranks of students sitting according to their classes, waiting... For the papers that we have written and drawn on during our exam periods... The papers we've worked so hard for. I've been through the process before, and I will go through it once more... For the last time this year, I am getting back the papers tomorrow, next Monday and Tuesday. Excited? Nope. I'd rather not go through it. Why? Because getting back the papers meant either having the glory of scoring high and exceeding your own expectations or huge disappointment in yourself and the results and sorrow. Did Harry felt the same when he saw the owls that brought his, Ron's and Hermione's O.W.Ls results? I'm already anticipating what's gonna happen tomorrow and what scores I will get, but I assume it's negative to a large extent. Been playing basketball and games hard to tire myself out and not think about that fateful day which has just about 3 more hours to go. However, what's to come will eventually come.... Might as well get it over and done with.
Monday, October 11, 2010
Spooky Feed #15
Any road followed precisely to its end leads precisely nowhere. Climb the mountain just a little bit to test that it's a mountain. From the top of the mountain, you cannot see the mountain. - from Muad'Dib: Family Commentaries by the Princess Irulan
Finally the exams are over... Maybe except the Oral Examinations on Wednesday but who actually seriously study for ORAL?? Maybe practicing reading a newspaper article and forming thoughts, reflections and suggestions in your head helps but... Never mind, anyway the main papers are officially over. Now I could finally take a breather, rest and relax... For a while. Why? Cause' the end of exams meant the start of getting back our results and stuff. Yeah, getting back our RESULTS seems to be the problem. Why? Cause' our results... I don't think they will be decent enough even for me, let alone my parents. *sigh* Never mind, I guess I better skip this topic for a while. In order to make an official retreat from our tiring revision for our exams, Me and my usual basketball mates went to the basketball court near my home and started taking shots and having some matches. It was quite fun today, just exhausted...
Finally the exams are over... Maybe except the Oral Examinations on Wednesday but who actually seriously study for ORAL?? Maybe practicing reading a newspaper article and forming thoughts, reflections and suggestions in your head helps but... Never mind, anyway the main papers are officially over. Now I could finally take a breather, rest and relax... For a while. Why? Cause' the end of exams meant the start of getting back our results and stuff. Yeah, getting back our RESULTS seems to be the problem. Why? Cause' our results... I don't think they will be decent enough even for me, let alone my parents. *sigh* Never mind, I guess I better skip this topic for a while. In order to make an official retreat from our tiring revision for our exams, Me and my usual basketball mates went to the basketball court near my home and started taking shots and having some matches. It was quite fun today, just exhausted...
Friday, October 8, 2010
Spooky Feed #14
It is said that the only fear we cannot correct is the fear of our own mistakes. - Stilgar
Finished my Physics paper today. Hmm... Perhaps 'finished' is not quite the word. Technically I didn't 'finish' the paper, I left out some questions due to time and... forgetting the methods to completing the questions. I'm pretty sure that I made quite a lot of mistakes in the paper... But I guess it's all over, no use brooding over it. I wanna talk more about something else. I wanna talk about mistakes. Yeah sure I've started out with my mistakes in my examinations, however the mistakes I wanna talk about is of a different kind. I meant mistakes in life. Some examples? Maybe like a mother who didn't keep her young child in her sight and an accident took her child's life away? Or perhaps a guy who didn't stay faithful to his girl, which eventually made the girl leave him and he now regrets it. People make mistakes, and yes, don't look at anyone or have someone else in your mind, I meant everyone, that's you and me. When they made a mistake, they probably would regret it, and seek of ways to correct their mistakes. Like you do corrections for the mistakes you make in school, so that you would realise your mistake and get the correct answer for the same type of questions in the future. Same in this case, we make a mistake, we learn our mistake and we try to correct it, so that we would not make the same mistake again. But some mistakes... They just couldn't be corrected. Just like the examples I've given above. Once you make a serious mistake, you may lose something or even someone important to you. Trust, Pride, a family member, a loved one. You may realise your mistake in the end, but once some things are lost... it will be forever lost....
Finished my Physics paper today. Hmm... Perhaps 'finished' is not quite the word. Technically I didn't 'finish' the paper, I left out some questions due to time and... forgetting the methods to completing the questions. I'm pretty sure that I made quite a lot of mistakes in the paper... But I guess it's all over, no use brooding over it. I wanna talk more about something else. I wanna talk about mistakes. Yeah sure I've started out with my mistakes in my examinations, however the mistakes I wanna talk about is of a different kind. I meant mistakes in life. Some examples? Maybe like a mother who didn't keep her young child in her sight and an accident took her child's life away? Or perhaps a guy who didn't stay faithful to his girl, which eventually made the girl leave him and he now regrets it. People make mistakes, and yes, don't look at anyone or have someone else in your mind, I meant everyone, that's you and me. When they made a mistake, they probably would regret it, and seek of ways to correct their mistakes. Like you do corrections for the mistakes you make in school, so that you would realise your mistake and get the correct answer for the same type of questions in the future. Same in this case, we make a mistake, we learn our mistake and we try to correct it, so that we would not make the same mistake again. But some mistakes... They just couldn't be corrected. Just like the examples I've given above. Once you make a serious mistake, you may lose something or even someone important to you. Trust, Pride, a family member, a loved one. You may realise your mistake in the end, but once some things are lost... it will be forever lost....
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
Spooky Feed #13
Do not count what you have lost. Count only what you still have. - Zensunni Sutra of the First Order
Finished both Languages paper, Combined Humanities, and Elementary Maths. I felt that I may have done below expectations for a few papers... But never mind, there's still more papers to complete. Tomorrow I'm having Chemistry and Geography papers. I admit that I could never score in Geography, and my Chemistry ain't that stable too. But I'm gonna try my best to revise and absorb whatever I can during this last few hours left. I don't wanna disappoint my parents again... I have to improve my scores. I may have already lost several marks in the first few paper but I'm not giving up. Like I'd said, I'm gonna bring the Burning Legion down on your heads...
Finished both Languages paper, Combined Humanities, and Elementary Maths. I felt that I may have done below expectations for a few papers... But never mind, there's still more papers to complete. Tomorrow I'm having Chemistry and Geography papers. I admit that I could never score in Geography, and my Chemistry ain't that stable too. But I'm gonna try my best to revise and absorb whatever I can during this last few hours left. I don't wanna disappoint my parents again... I have to improve my scores. I may have already lost several marks in the first few paper but I'm not giving up. Like I'd said, I'm gonna bring the Burning Legion down on your heads...
Saturday, October 2, 2010
Spooky Feed #12
If wishes were fishes, we'd all cast nets. - Gurney Halleck
People do wish right? What do we all actually wish for? Some wish for good results, wish for good-looks, wish for unique abilities, wish for a good career, wish to reunite with friends they miss so much, wish to become someone special, wish for love and care, wish for this, wish for that... Why do we wish anyway? 'Course we hope that our wishes would come true. Remember the process where the birthday boy/girl makes a wish then blow out the flames of the candles on their birthday cake? Making a wish is magical, you simply close your eyes then make a wish in your heart, sincerely hoping that your wish would come true, because you really need it or really want it to. Yet some wishes just won't come true. I recall a man wishing for world peace, where people could finally understand one another, no more conflicts and no more killings. He didn't just mean peace between countries and states, he meant peace among every person in this world. He didn't just mean no more conflicts among different groups of people, he meant no more conflict among every single person. Like a student not having a conflict with another. Tiny for a conflict if you actually see the globe. Everyone knows that that wish did not come true, but only few did seriously work towards completing the wish. Sad huh? Or did anyone even care?
People do wish right? What do we all actually wish for? Some wish for good results, wish for good-looks, wish for unique abilities, wish for a good career, wish to reunite with friends they miss so much, wish to become someone special, wish for love and care, wish for this, wish for that... Why do we wish anyway? 'Course we hope that our wishes would come true. Remember the process where the birthday boy/girl makes a wish then blow out the flames of the candles on their birthday cake? Making a wish is magical, you simply close your eyes then make a wish in your heart, sincerely hoping that your wish would come true, because you really need it or really want it to. Yet some wishes just won't come true. I recall a man wishing for world peace, where people could finally understand one another, no more conflicts and no more killings. He didn't just mean peace between countries and states, he meant peace among every person in this world. He didn't just mean no more conflicts among different groups of people, he meant no more conflict among every single person. Like a student not having a conflict with another. Tiny for a conflict if you actually see the globe. Everyone knows that that wish did not come true, but only few did seriously work towards completing the wish. Sad huh? Or did anyone even care?
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