Missing someone isn't about how long is been since you've seen each other or the amount to time since you've talked. Its about that very moment when your doing something and you wish they were right there with you every time.
Here's a another guy I really do miss. His name is Nicholas Chan. He is one of my very best friends I had since Primary School. Frankly, He's my best friend. The very best. He and I met first in Primary One. We were in the same class back then. He sorta sat beside me, then we began chatting since the very first day we met in our class. Our friendship grew so naturally that I didn't even understand how we hit it off so quickly and so naturally. We even strolled back home together after knowing the crazy fact that his house was just 2 blocks away from mine. It happened on the very FIRST day we met. After reaching home, my mum asked whether I knew a guy from the same class named Boon Chiang. I said yes. Why? Coz' Boon Chiang is Nicholas' chinese name. Then my mum was astonished by the fact that we became fast friends. She explained to me that she got to know Nick's mother... Even our mums are friends. Hahas, such a coincidence? I call it fate. Ever since, He and I became playmates, went to each other's house to play, went to explore Singapore with our mums and other friends we got to know through one another, swimming, bowling, playground and a whole lot of stuff. Sometimes we would bicker and stuff... I was with the same class with him in Primary One and Two then got seperated for two years then went to the same class again in Primary Five and Six. Funny, isn't it? After we graduated from our Primary School and moved on to Secondary School life, we didn't meet up anymore. Although once in a blue moon, we would run into each other and say "Hi" then a little greetings and we would leave. Today I've run into him again. I was walking home through the usual path which would pass by his block. Then a voice called out in front of me when I was lookin' down and just off the phone. "Eh? Bai Xiang?" I looked up and saw him. "Eh? Nicholas?" While we were speaking, my legs were still moving, though he was just standing there. When I walked past him, I turned around and asked "Hey, you are going out?" "Ya, I'm going to Orchard." "Well, Merry Christmas." Then I left after sensing his acknowledgement. I wonder whether we would have the chance to be great friends as we once were... I really miss the old, good times I have with him. Of coz', I miss him as a dear friend. Once again, Merry Christmas, Nick. My best friend.
Utakata Hanabi
Sasuke x Sakura
Friday, December 24, 2010
Thursday, December 23, 2010
Spooky Feed #33
Missing someone isn't about how long is been since you've seen each other or the amount to time since you've talked. Its about that very moment when your doing something and you wish they were right there with you every time.
I miss a lot of people. I miss my favourite teachers. I miss my old friends. I miss my classmates and school mates. Now I'm gonna tell you about a few people I miss in my life. The first would be my sis. I usually call her "jie" which is the term for elder sister in Mandarin. She's not blood-related to me. She is someone I've met in Audition. Y'know, the dancing game? Asiasoft? Yep. I could briefly recall the day I met her on Audition. Yes, it was usual. We happened to meet in the same "room" then we started playin' together. The thing that brought us together was the "Club Dance" mode. Lemme briefly explain to those who didn't play the game or had no idea what Club Dance mode is. It is a match whereby there are 3 males and 3 females, they would choose the best, the second and the third of the other gender so to give "hearts" to the other gender. Then the males have to go "proposing" to the females one by one. If the female agrees to a guy, then they will be pair up. If not, then bye-bye. Pairs would accumulate hearts through performing sychro moves like hitting great together or perfect together and finishing moves. The pair with the most number of hearts accumulated together wins. That's Club Dance 2. For Club Dance 1, you just choose the other gender, and if the choice is mutual then you get paired up. No hearts by the way. Well, that was the one that brought us closer, as we went on winning streaks when paired up and had a great time playin'. Well, she became a couple with another guy then the three of us would play together. There were a period of time when she was trying with her guy to break the 100 hearts limit. They kept trying but their furthest was 98-94 approximately. Well, of course I tried with her. We broke it. 115-109. <3. It just so happens that we both found out that we were born on the same date. 7th May. Such a affinity. She is 6 years older than me though. That's why I called her "jie". She's like my elder sister. I was the only child in the family, that's why I was gald to have her as my god-sister. Ever since before the exams, she had been pretty busy, that's why she didn't come online often. I really do miss her and the happy times we had together... Jie, I miss you.
I miss a lot of people. I miss my favourite teachers. I miss my old friends. I miss my classmates and school mates. Now I'm gonna tell you about a few people I miss in my life. The first would be my sis. I usually call her "jie" which is the term for elder sister in Mandarin. She's not blood-related to me. She is someone I've met in Audition. Y'know, the dancing game? Asiasoft? Yep. I could briefly recall the day I met her on Audition. Yes, it was usual. We happened to meet in the same "room" then we started playin' together. The thing that brought us together was the "Club Dance" mode. Lemme briefly explain to those who didn't play the game or had no idea what Club Dance mode is. It is a match whereby there are 3 males and 3 females, they would choose the best, the second and the third of the other gender so to give "hearts" to the other gender. Then the males have to go "proposing" to the females one by one. If the female agrees to a guy, then they will be pair up. If not, then bye-bye. Pairs would accumulate hearts through performing sychro moves like hitting great together or perfect together and finishing moves. The pair with the most number of hearts accumulated together wins. That's Club Dance 2. For Club Dance 1, you just choose the other gender, and if the choice is mutual then you get paired up. No hearts by the way. Well, that was the one that brought us closer, as we went on winning streaks when paired up and had a great time playin'. Well, she became a couple with another guy then the three of us would play together. There were a period of time when she was trying with her guy to break the 100 hearts limit. They kept trying but their furthest was 98-94 approximately. Well, of course I tried with her. We broke it. 115-109. <3. It just so happens that we both found out that we were born on the same date. 7th May. Such a affinity. She is 6 years older than me though. That's why I called her "jie". She's like my elder sister. I was the only child in the family, that's why I was gald to have her as my god-sister. Ever since before the exams, she had been pretty busy, that's why she didn't come online often. I really do miss her and the happy times we had together... Jie, I miss you.
Spooky Feed #32
Not knowing what you said, you said it. - Leto, to Stilgar
Perhaps I was wrong. Wrong about you. I didn't think that you would be so stupid... So self-centered and so naive. Heh. On the very first day I've met you, I thought that it would be such a rare and wonderful friendship we are going to have. Well, one year later to that fateful day... I already expected that it won't be such a fun ride after all. Call me a prophet, but I've anticipated a lot of stuff about you. Including your fall. And, it happened. Just as I predicted. Was I overjoyed? Nope. Coz' I treated you as a friend. You may not have treated me the same way I have treated you but never mind that. I don't really care. You were despised by a lot of people coz' of the way you act, your personality, your arrogance... And your pretence. I recall how you were or still are. You think that you are better than everyone. The King. You think that you are popular. However, the others thought of you as someone trying to steal the limelight, trying to become popular, trying to become one of 'em. You were truly popular in the past. But now nobody really care about you. Why? Heh... Must have been the girl you sorta liked. In people's eyes, you are not fit for her. Yet you probably thought you were. Then one thing leads to another. Then several troubles came up because of you and stuff like that. Yep. I wondered what am I in your eyes? A true friend? Someone gloatin' over you? Someone who doesn't really understand you? Just a passer-by in your life? Or a rival? I've just got that feelin' that you are jealous and did not acknowledge ultimate fact that I am better than you and wanted to resist it. Tell you what. I don't really care what you thought of me. When we were out once, you've told me of your current relationship situation. You've told me that your relationship situation was really bad and difficult. I was astonished. You knew about mine. Yet... There's this guy who went to ZhuHai too. He fell for a girl over there. But in the end got rejected. He was hit hard and wanted to "kill himself"... He said something to another friend who was comforting him. He said "Someone else has a several times more painful experience in his relationship situation than me." "Who?" "BX." Even he whom I didn't confide much about my situation and got rejected straight knew that... Seriously... Everytime I hear you whine about your life and stuff, then hear about how strong and determined you were, listen to your comments on something that you are too inexperienced to talk about. I feel quite annoyed actually. Well, not knowing what you said, you said it.
Perhaps I was wrong. Wrong about you. I didn't think that you would be so stupid... So self-centered and so naive. Heh. On the very first day I've met you, I thought that it would be such a rare and wonderful friendship we are going to have. Well, one year later to that fateful day... I already expected that it won't be such a fun ride after all. Call me a prophet, but I've anticipated a lot of stuff about you. Including your fall. And, it happened. Just as I predicted. Was I overjoyed? Nope. Coz' I treated you as a friend. You may not have treated me the same way I have treated you but never mind that. I don't really care. You were despised by a lot of people coz' of the way you act, your personality, your arrogance... And your pretence. I recall how you were or still are. You think that you are better than everyone. The King. You think that you are popular. However, the others thought of you as someone trying to steal the limelight, trying to become popular, trying to become one of 'em. You were truly popular in the past. But now nobody really care about you. Why? Heh... Must have been the girl you sorta liked. In people's eyes, you are not fit for her. Yet you probably thought you were. Then one thing leads to another. Then several troubles came up because of you and stuff like that. Yep. I wondered what am I in your eyes? A true friend? Someone gloatin' over you? Someone who doesn't really understand you? Just a passer-by in your life? Or a rival? I've just got that feelin' that you are jealous and did not acknowledge ultimate fact that I am better than you and wanted to resist it. Tell you what. I don't really care what you thought of me. When we were out once, you've told me of your current relationship situation. You've told me that your relationship situation was really bad and difficult. I was astonished. You knew about mine. Yet... There's this guy who went to ZhuHai too. He fell for a girl over there. But in the end got rejected. He was hit hard and wanted to "kill himself"... He said something to another friend who was comforting him. He said "Someone else has a several times more painful experience in his relationship situation than me." "Who?" "BX." Even he whom I didn't confide much about my situation and got rejected straight knew that... Seriously... Everytime I hear you whine about your life and stuff, then hear about how strong and determined you were, listen to your comments on something that you are too inexperienced to talk about. I feel quite annoyed actually. Well, not knowing what you said, you said it.
Thursday, December 16, 2010
Spooky Feed #31
If you believe certain words, you believe their hidden arguments. - The Open-Ended Proof from The Panoplia Prophetica
Well, sorry that I didn't actually post anything these few days. It slipped off my mind. Today, one of my best pal finally returned from his 3-week stay at Kuala Lumpur. Of coz' I'm quite elated. However he doesn't seemed very much happy after discovering some changes in our society when he's away. After chatting with him, he realised that it's probaby a misunderstanding and well, he seemed rather upset with his incorrect assumption. Just as the quote says, don't believe every word you hear. At least "check" for "hidden arguments". Y'all know what I mean, right? Oh right, I've been playin' Monopoly Deal this holidays, it is really fun, fast paced and enjoyable! I'm getting really good at playing it. I've even won a game against two persons within 2 turns!! That's some record, eh? Although I've figured out a way to win within 1 turn. Never mind about that, coz' at least I'm proud to achieve that. The holidays are slipping away already, like I've expected before the holidays even started. Crap, I still did not complete my holiday assignments yet!
Well, sorry that I didn't actually post anything these few days. It slipped off my mind. Today, one of my best pal finally returned from his 3-week stay at Kuala Lumpur. Of coz' I'm quite elated. However he doesn't seemed very much happy after discovering some changes in our society when he's away. After chatting with him, he realised that it's probaby a misunderstanding and well, he seemed rather upset with his incorrect assumption. Just as the quote says, don't believe every word you hear. At least "check" for "hidden arguments". Y'all know what I mean, right? Oh right, I've been playin' Monopoly Deal this holidays, it is really fun, fast paced and enjoyable! I'm getting really good at playing it. I've even won a game against two persons within 2 turns!! That's some record, eh? Although I've figured out a way to win within 1 turn. Never mind about that, coz' at least I'm proud to achieve that. The holidays are slipping away already, like I've expected before the holidays even started. Crap, I still did not complete my holiday assignments yet!
Monday, December 6, 2010
Spooky Feed #30
Parting with friends is a sadness. A place is only a place. - Thufir Hawat
I've finally returned from the ZhuHai Trip. I've learnt a lot of stuff there, built everlasting friendships and strengthened already existing ones. I've learnt more of the Chinese Qing Dynasty history, the legend of ZhuHai's Pearl Lady, Sun Yat-Sen's life and honorable deeds and a lot more. It was really a meaningful journey we all had. I wished I could have the chance to go there again. Not because of the scenery, the climate, and famous attractions. But because of the deep and everlasting friendship we shared with our ZhuHai buddies. Even though it was just 8 days, actually 6 to be precise, but we built this incredible friendship with our buddies. It is not just any relationship. It is a bond. A bond we had with our buddies over there. This bond links us together even though we are countries apart. Singapore to China. You had absolutely no idea how many people cried after the farewell show, girls AND boys. Not me, though. I'm tough. But I'm still touched. We spent 6 days together. Only 6 days. Yet it feels like we had known each other for very long already. When we eventually parted... Of coz' we'd feel sad. Trust me, once you are on this trip, you are in for a very emotional and fun-packed ride. Man, I miss my buddy. However, we would meet again next year, during the July period. After that we may never get a chance to meet again. Although we actually got their contacts like MSN and phone number etc. We are seperated by miles and miles, borders and borders. But our friendship lives on.
I've finally returned from the ZhuHai Trip. I've learnt a lot of stuff there, built everlasting friendships and strengthened already existing ones. I've learnt more of the Chinese Qing Dynasty history, the legend of ZhuHai's Pearl Lady, Sun Yat-Sen's life and honorable deeds and a lot more. It was really a meaningful journey we all had. I wished I could have the chance to go there again. Not because of the scenery, the climate, and famous attractions. But because of the deep and everlasting friendship we shared with our ZhuHai buddies. Even though it was just 8 days, actually 6 to be precise, but we built this incredible friendship with our buddies. It is not just any relationship. It is a bond. A bond we had with our buddies over there. This bond links us together even though we are countries apart. Singapore to China. You had absolutely no idea how many people cried after the farewell show, girls AND boys. Not me, though. I'm tough. But I'm still touched. We spent 6 days together. Only 6 days. Yet it feels like we had known each other for very long already. When we eventually parted... Of coz' we'd feel sad. Trust me, once you are on this trip, you are in for a very emotional and fun-packed ride. Man, I miss my buddy. However, we would meet again next year, during the July period. After that we may never get a chance to meet again. Although we actually got their contacts like MSN and phone number etc. We are seperated by miles and miles, borders and borders. But our friendship lives on.
Thursday, November 25, 2010
Farewell
I am heading overseas tomorrow morning, so I won't be able to post anything till I return. But ya, I promise to post on my experience overseas when I get back. So, stay tuned! 8 days from now...
Wednesday, November 24, 2010
Spooky Feed #29
"Always the tone of surprise." - Ron to Hermione + Hermione to Ron
I had this strange dream today morning when I was still asleep. This is how it goes...
Me: Albus? (though I had absolutely no idea why I would call him that instead of Professor Dumbledore)
Dumbledore: Oh! Come take a seat. You see, Voldemort is going to take over the wizarding world
(He held the Elder Wand towards me)
Me: That would be taken by him too.
Him: Really? I would like you to have it.
Me: (stunned) (coz I saw You-Know-Who just about three metres away from me and the Prof.)
Him: Take this wand and escape to the "Student Council Room"
(then I realised we were outside the Bethel Hall in my school instead of Hogwarts)
Me: Student Council Room? What!? (half-eyeing the approaching Dark Lord)
(I then took the Elder Wand and ran towards the rightside stairs)
Voldemort: Reducto!! (WTH!? I thought he was going to use Avada Kedavra. And why the hell does he want to use Reducto?)
Me: (waved the Elder Wand behind me) Protego!
(Still I got hit and I coughed out blood)
Voldemort: Now gimme the wand.
Me: Fine! Why so serious?
(He gave me that funny look on his face)
Then I woke up, half-expecting the Prof. to decipher my dream (connection with Lord Voldemort) and Snape to teach me Occlumency.
I had this strange dream today morning when I was still asleep. This is how it goes...
Me: Albus? (though I had absolutely no idea why I would call him that instead of Professor Dumbledore)
Dumbledore: Oh! Come take a seat. You see, Voldemort is going to take over the wizarding world
(He held the Elder Wand towards me)
Me: That would be taken by him too.
Him: Really? I would like you to have it.
Me: (stunned) (coz I saw You-Know-Who just about three metres away from me and the Prof.)
Him: Take this wand and escape to the "Student Council Room"
(then I realised we were outside the Bethel Hall in my school instead of Hogwarts)
Me: Student Council Room? What!? (half-eyeing the approaching Dark Lord)
(I then took the Elder Wand and ran towards the rightside stairs)
Voldemort: Reducto!! (WTH!? I thought he was going to use Avada Kedavra. And why the hell does he want to use Reducto?)
Me: (waved the Elder Wand behind me) Protego!
(Still I got hit and I coughed out blood)
Voldemort: Now gimme the wand.
Me: Fine! Why so serious?
(He gave me that funny look on his face)
Then I woke up, half-expecting the Prof. to decipher my dream (connection with Lord Voldemort) and Snape to teach me Occlumency.
Monday, November 22, 2010
Spooky Feed #28
Ahh, but the dice cannot read their own spots. - Bijaz
I'm tired. Tired from all these things. Both physically and psychologically. I seriously have had enough of this nonsense. No matter how hard you try to pull, you could never pull a person up from dropping into a endless pit if that person had already submitted to his fate and did not make any effort to continue living on. It's really pathetic. No matter what advice you give, he would listen yet not make any effort to change and only drown himself with sorrow. It really pisses me off whenever I see this kind of people. God gave them life. They simply took everything for granted and not do anything to live up his expectations. At least live a good life. Have something in your life worth living for. No matter where you fall at, pick yourself up. There are people out there who have suffered much more. They have suffered from loss of loved ones to natural disasters, wars, famine, droughts and all the unhappy events, suffered from terminal diseases, with little time left to live, suffered from financial crisis. Yet they pick themselves up and left their past behind them. If they have been through so much and made it through, why can't you? I don't care whether if it's a terrible business failure, matters over love, relationships with family and friends, scoring badly for your exams, getting sacked from your job, or any other setbacks, serious or minor. Accept it. Forgive yourself. Move on in life.
I'm tired. Tired from all these things. Both physically and psychologically. I seriously have had enough of this nonsense. No matter how hard you try to pull, you could never pull a person up from dropping into a endless pit if that person had already submitted to his fate and did not make any effort to continue living on. It's really pathetic. No matter what advice you give, he would listen yet not make any effort to change and only drown himself with sorrow. It really pisses me off whenever I see this kind of people. God gave them life. They simply took everything for granted and not do anything to live up his expectations. At least live a good life. Have something in your life worth living for. No matter where you fall at, pick yourself up. There are people out there who have suffered much more. They have suffered from loss of loved ones to natural disasters, wars, famine, droughts and all the unhappy events, suffered from terminal diseases, with little time left to live, suffered from financial crisis. Yet they pick themselves up and left their past behind them. If they have been through so much and made it through, why can't you? I don't care whether if it's a terrible business failure, matters over love, relationships with family and friends, scoring badly for your exams, getting sacked from your job, or any other setbacks, serious or minor. Accept it. Forgive yourself. Move on in life.
Friday, November 19, 2010
Spooky Feed #27
I have said: "Blow out the lamp! Day is here!" And you keep saying: "Give me a lamp so I can find the day." - Bijaz to Hayt
In the end you still came back. Returned from your trip. With the bonds between you two as a couple stronger than ever. I expected it anyway. I'm glad you had returned safe and sound. It's your 2nd anniversary huh? Congratulations. After all, what can I do? Life still goes on... I will be fine.
Another thing is that my friend lost the bet. If you had actually viewed my posts, you would have understood what I meant. I'm not eyeing that "Latest Playstation at that point of time", my point is that he has confirmed it himself. He is being avoided by the girl he loved. She doesn't seem happy with him around her. As in, she was normal and could laugh like usual then until he came forward and she just... became quiet and ignored him. Imagine how he felt when he'd understood what's going on. I'm not trying to boast but I'd already foreseen this. Worse, he wanted to end his life. I, of course, tried talking to him and prevented it. But it was a huge blow to him. I really don't know how I am supposed to... tell him why. I just got that feeling that he still don't quite understand even though he acts like he does. *sigh*, life is like that huh? Always making fun of people.
In the end you still came back. Returned from your trip. With the bonds between you two as a couple stronger than ever. I expected it anyway. I'm glad you had returned safe and sound. It's your 2nd anniversary huh? Congratulations. After all, what can I do? Life still goes on... I will be fine.
Another thing is that my friend lost the bet. If you had actually viewed my posts, you would have understood what I meant. I'm not eyeing that "Latest Playstation at that point of time", my point is that he has confirmed it himself. He is being avoided by the girl he loved. She doesn't seem happy with him around her. As in, she was normal and could laugh like usual then until he came forward and she just... became quiet and ignored him. Imagine how he felt when he'd understood what's going on. I'm not trying to boast but I'd already foreseen this. Worse, he wanted to end his life. I, of course, tried talking to him and prevented it. But it was a huge blow to him. I really don't know how I am supposed to... tell him why. I just got that feeling that he still don't quite understand even though he acts like he does. *sigh*, life is like that huh? Always making fun of people.
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
Spooky Feed #26
I would wait till forever just so we could be together. If only you weren't so blind to see, how much you truly mean to me. - Anonymous
You flew away. Flew away from Singapore, flew away from your home, flew away from your society, flew away from me. You went to Hong Kong, together with your boyfriend, enjoying yourselves there. Do you have any idea how much it hurts? I surrender man. I'm not gonna fight fate anymore. I'm resigned to fate. I've always thought that I might stand a chance but that's too silly, huh? I mean, how could I not know that there's no chance of us getting together? I'm just being to silly, too naive. And silly me actually prayed that you would be safe and you would enjoy yourself there. That's ridiculous huh? It's been a full 6 years and still countin'. Maybe I shouldn't love you in the 1st place huh? Just imagine you and your boyfriend having fun together on holiday in another country? I felt like I just got shot by a sniper rifle, the high caliber bullet type. Or maybe I just didn't love you enough? Coz' I didn't have the what it takes to be your man? Coz' I didn't have the courage? I can't turn back time. I can't look up to the new moon night sky neither can I close my eyes. Why? Coz' you will appear in the skies and in my heart. I just can't let you go. If my love for you grows deeper every second, just imagine me loving you for 6 years. I'm pretty sure the roots would be really deep. Perhaps 6 miles into the ground? Try plucking the giant tree out then. I've studied Physics. I estimate you'll need a force of 60000000000000000 Newton (to 1 significant figure).
You flew away. Flew away from Singapore, flew away from your home, flew away from your society, flew away from me. You went to Hong Kong, together with your boyfriend, enjoying yourselves there. Do you have any idea how much it hurts? I surrender man. I'm not gonna fight fate anymore. I'm resigned to fate. I've always thought that I might stand a chance but that's too silly, huh? I mean, how could I not know that there's no chance of us getting together? I'm just being to silly, too naive. And silly me actually prayed that you would be safe and you would enjoy yourself there. That's ridiculous huh? It's been a full 6 years and still countin'. Maybe I shouldn't love you in the 1st place huh? Just imagine you and your boyfriend having fun together on holiday in another country? I felt like I just got shot by a sniper rifle, the high caliber bullet type. Or maybe I just didn't love you enough? Coz' I didn't have the what it takes to be your man? Coz' I didn't have the courage? I can't turn back time. I can't look up to the new moon night sky neither can I close my eyes. Why? Coz' you will appear in the skies and in my heart. I just can't let you go. If my love for you grows deeper every second, just imagine me loving you for 6 years. I'm pretty sure the roots would be really deep. Perhaps 6 miles into the ground? Try plucking the giant tree out then. I've studied Physics. I estimate you'll need a force of 60000000000000000 Newton (to 1 significant figure).
Saturday, November 13, 2010
Spooky Feed #25
Don't Just Play. Play With Heart. - Lebron James
I Pledge My Heart To The Game.
To Play Every Moment With Passion,
To Be Loyal To Those Who Are Loyal To Me,
To Be Clutch With No Back Up Plan,
To Have The Pure Drive To Win,
To Show Resilience In The Struggle,
Humility In The Spotlight,
And The Magnetism To Be Never Forgotten.
Today I've pledged myself to the game. The game of Basketball. Of coz' I didn't think that I would really become a great player in the game, or have the opportunity to go to NBA. But this pledge really is meaningful. Hitting the courts, slashing to the glass, and dropping threes have been my favourite hobby during these times. No matter how awful you play on the court, respect the game that have shook the world. Play it with passion. Respect the players who are 'noob' too. Always remember, you are not born a pro, you were there once. Of coz' don't use all this only in Basketball, remember it and use it effectively in every aspect of life.
I Pledge My Heart To The Game.
To Play Every Moment With Passion,
To Be Loyal To Those Who Are Loyal To Me,
To Be Clutch With No Back Up Plan,
To Have The Pure Drive To Win,
To Show Resilience In The Struggle,
Humility In The Spotlight,
And The Magnetism To Be Never Forgotten.
Today I've pledged myself to the game. The game of Basketball. Of coz' I didn't think that I would really become a great player in the game, or have the opportunity to go to NBA. But this pledge really is meaningful. Hitting the courts, slashing to the glass, and dropping threes have been my favourite hobby during these times. No matter how awful you play on the court, respect the game that have shook the world. Play it with passion. Respect the players who are 'noob' too. Always remember, you are not born a pro, you were there once. Of coz' don't use all this only in Basketball, remember it and use it effectively in every aspect of life.
Monday, November 8, 2010
Spooky Feed #24
You do not take from this universe. It grants you what it will. - Paul Muad'dib
Many events had happened over these few days, that's why I haven't been able to post much recently. Finally, the CmPS Nationals are over... Can finally take a breather and relax... Been really exhausted from all these activites, be it the Sec 3 Extended Lessons, Rehearsals for performance during the ZhuHai trip, CmPS Nationals... Another course is probably coming up for me next week. Haven't been really able to have some rest. However the few leisure activites I had always cheer me up: Basketball, joking and of coz' this laptop I'm using right now. Alright enough about my recent activites, let's go to the main point of this post. There's this guy I know as a friend who is always upset about his life. He had went through several ups and downs throughout his life till now. He is not really good in exams, is not musically talented, not rich, not charismatic, not "good-looking" and a whole lot of stuff I didn't bother to name. "Just not good enough". This post is dedicated to him. I hope that he could really understand that we can't take whatever we want from this world. It is our fate to be who we were, who we are and who we will be. Our identity serves God's purpose for us. So don't be sad when you aint what you wanna be, or you didn't get what you desired.
Many events had happened over these few days, that's why I haven't been able to post much recently. Finally, the CmPS Nationals are over... Can finally take a breather and relax... Been really exhausted from all these activites, be it the Sec 3 Extended Lessons, Rehearsals for performance during the ZhuHai trip, CmPS Nationals... Another course is probably coming up for me next week. Haven't been really able to have some rest. However the few leisure activites I had always cheer me up: Basketball, joking and of coz' this laptop I'm using right now. Alright enough about my recent activites, let's go to the main point of this post. There's this guy I know as a friend who is always upset about his life. He had went through several ups and downs throughout his life till now. He is not really good in exams, is not musically talented, not rich, not charismatic, not "good-looking" and a whole lot of stuff I didn't bother to name. "Just not good enough". This post is dedicated to him. I hope that he could really understand that we can't take whatever we want from this world. It is our fate to be who we were, who we are and who we will be. Our identity serves God's purpose for us. So don't be sad when you aint what you wanna be, or you didn't get what you desired.
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
Spooky Feed #23
Think you of the fact that a deaf person cannot hear. Then, what deafness may we not all possess? What senses do we lack that we cannot see and cannot hear another world all around us? - The Orange Catholic Bible
I always see people here crying out "FML", see people there groaning about the tons of homework, one scolding the teacher for being too strict and another condemning the teacher for lousy teaching. Not just in the educational zone, but in many other areas in life too. I hear complains on the food for being too oily or tasteless and so on... I witness a girl complaining about her looks and stuff, seen another guy unhappy because his beloved one did not like him. Seen another upset with his family, while another totally screwed up his studies big time and was so down and depressed. Sounds familiar? Hating this, disliking that, upset with this, not satisfied with that. I guess you all should understand that people tend to be like "Why must this happen?" or "It's not good enough."... When I saw this kind of things, I can't help but think of the hundred of thousands or millions suffering out there either because of natural disasters or environment or illness. People ARE suffering out there. Suffer you ask? From what? From the tons of homework? Or the bad taste of food? Or from the irritating people we've met? Or because of 'not good enough' looks and stuff? Nope. They are suffering due to the lack of basic needs such as food and water. Suffering due to the lack of nutritions. Suffering due to serious diseases. Suffering due to the loss of their homes, their livelihood. Even suffering due to the loss of loved ones, be it friends or family. Those kind of suffering... You may have witnessed it on the news or the television. But unless you have experienced it before, you would never fully understand how it feels like. OUR suffering? Homework? Hey look, some or most kids from less-developed countries did not even have the chance to have education! If you think it's good for them as they won't need to tire themselves out doing the tons of homework, I assure you, those people would jump at the chance to have education so that they could go to work in the future to support themselves and their family. Food that does not meet our expectations? Crap. There are people out there in desperate need of food in order to survive. They need food for survival, not to enjoy it. If you really think that your life is screwed up over and over again, think again. Face reality, we are leading a far more comfortable life than a lot of unfortunate people. The fact is that people living comfortable lives tend to not be satisfied with whatever they have, they still want more and expect more. C'mon, even if we don't sympathise those people suffering, at least be content with what you already have.
I always see people here crying out "FML", see people there groaning about the tons of homework, one scolding the teacher for being too strict and another condemning the teacher for lousy teaching. Not just in the educational zone, but in many other areas in life too. I hear complains on the food for being too oily or tasteless and so on... I witness a girl complaining about her looks and stuff, seen another guy unhappy because his beloved one did not like him. Seen another upset with his family, while another totally screwed up his studies big time and was so down and depressed. Sounds familiar? Hating this, disliking that, upset with this, not satisfied with that. I guess you all should understand that people tend to be like "Why must this happen?" or "It's not good enough."... When I saw this kind of things, I can't help but think of the hundred of thousands or millions suffering out there either because of natural disasters or environment or illness. People ARE suffering out there. Suffer you ask? From what? From the tons of homework? Or the bad taste of food? Or from the irritating people we've met? Or because of 'not good enough' looks and stuff? Nope. They are suffering due to the lack of basic needs such as food and water. Suffering due to the lack of nutritions. Suffering due to serious diseases. Suffering due to the loss of their homes, their livelihood. Even suffering due to the loss of loved ones, be it friends or family. Those kind of suffering... You may have witnessed it on the news or the television. But unless you have experienced it before, you would never fully understand how it feels like. OUR suffering? Homework? Hey look, some or most kids from less-developed countries did not even have the chance to have education! If you think it's good for them as they won't need to tire themselves out doing the tons of homework, I assure you, those people would jump at the chance to have education so that they could go to work in the future to support themselves and their family. Food that does not meet our expectations? Crap. There are people out there in desperate need of food in order to survive. They need food for survival, not to enjoy it. If you really think that your life is screwed up over and over again, think again. Face reality, we are leading a far more comfortable life than a lot of unfortunate people. The fact is that people living comfortable lives tend to not be satisfied with whatever they have, they still want more and expect more. C'mon, even if we don't sympathise those people suffering, at least be content with what you already have.
Monday, November 1, 2010
Spooky Feed #22
Words are magic. - Zufa Cenva
Today's the 1st day of the 2-week Extended Lessons intended for all Secondary 3 students. It wasn't really a good start. Why? I've found myself trying hard to stay awake and focused during Math lesson. The ultimate test: O-Levels will arrive at our doorstep in less than a year's time. The people may still think they've still got time to revise and buck up but not me. I'm serious about scoring in my O-Levels next year. Dead serious. Enough about my studies, let's talk about something else that happened today. After the Extended Lessons today, I gotta learn dance from my Mother Tongue teacher to perform at the farewell party during the Zhuhai trip. Man, it's crap and stuff. I've slipped away of course. Then I ran over to the basketball court, where my friends were already playing. Then it was basketball till 3:20pm. Me, Bryan Cheo and John then went over to the nearby bubble tea shop to grab a drink to quench our thirst. In the process, we talked about anime and stuff. The catch is this, we actually played 'Truth or Dare'!! Imagine how fun it would be playing with 3 guys. Fun? A bit. But we miraculously killed time until 6pm! Man, it was pretty cool to be able to even have some fun playing with 2 other guys. We'd all chose 'Truth'. Why? Coz' we did not intend to pull any crazy stunt or a silly prank. However, it was still not bad considering playing with 2 other guys like I've said. Man, the questions we asked... Incredible.
Today's the 1st day of the 2-week Extended Lessons intended for all Secondary 3 students. It wasn't really a good start. Why? I've found myself trying hard to stay awake and focused during Math lesson. The ultimate test: O-Levels will arrive at our doorstep in less than a year's time. The people may still think they've still got time to revise and buck up but not me. I'm serious about scoring in my O-Levels next year. Dead serious. Enough about my studies, let's talk about something else that happened today. After the Extended Lessons today, I gotta learn dance from my Mother Tongue teacher to perform at the farewell party during the Zhuhai trip. Man, it's crap and stuff. I've slipped away of course. Then I ran over to the basketball court, where my friends were already playing. Then it was basketball till 3:20pm. Me, Bryan Cheo and John then went over to the nearby bubble tea shop to grab a drink to quench our thirst. In the process, we talked about anime and stuff. The catch is this, we actually played 'Truth or Dare'!! Imagine how fun it would be playing with 3 guys. Fun? A bit. But we miraculously killed time until 6pm! Man, it was pretty cool to be able to even have some fun playing with 2 other guys. We'd all chose 'Truth'. Why? Coz' we did not intend to pull any crazy stunt or a silly prank. However, it was still not bad considering playing with 2 other guys like I've said. Man, the questions we asked... Incredible.
Saturday, October 30, 2010
Spooky Feed #21
My father once told me that respect for the truth comes close to being the basis for all morality. "Something cannot emerge from nothing," he said. This is profound thinking if you understand how unstable "the truth" can be. - from Conversations with Muad'Dib by the Princess Irulan
That bet I've made with Alvin, was supposed to escalate things into a higher level (not really, though). I wondered what he has done to keep his end of his bargain. He was supposed to... date her and hopefully marry her. What are the winnings? If he dates and marries her, I will have to buy THEM a bottle of whiskey (I don't even know whether we would even be drinking alcohol by then) as a wedding gift on their wedding. If not, I'll get the latest PlayStation at that point of time from him. Sounds great? I'm willing to buy them a wedding gift on their wedding of course. But he will suffer if he loses. He'd better not lose this gamble. Truth will be revealed 13 years later. And I'll be waiting.
That bet I've made with Alvin, was supposed to escalate things into a higher level (not really, though). I wondered what he has done to keep his end of his bargain. He was supposed to... date her and hopefully marry her. What are the winnings? If he dates and marries her, I will have to buy THEM a bottle of whiskey (I don't even know whether we would even be drinking alcohol by then) as a wedding gift on their wedding. If not, I'll get the latest PlayStation at that point of time from him. Sounds great? I'm willing to buy them a wedding gift on their wedding of course. But he will suffer if he loses. He'd better not lose this gamble. Truth will be revealed 13 years later. And I'll be waiting.
Thursday, October 28, 2010
Apologies
I'm sorry for not posting much nowadays for you viewers as I'm kinda really busy and filled with exhaustion everytime I sit down in front of my computer to write a post due to entering a National Competition (unwillingly, and not sports by the way). I'll try to post as much as I can.
Saturday, October 23, 2010
Spooky Feed #20
If you believe certain words, you believe their hidden arguments. When you believe something is right or wrong, true or false, you believe the assumptions in the words which express the arguments. Such assumptions are often full of holes, but remain most precious to the convinced. - The Open-Ended Proof from The Panoplia Prophetica
Haven't been updating my blog for the past few days. I'm either too busy, or simply forgot to update it or too exhausted. There's actually a day when I was so exhausted from my basketball match and stuff that I slept at 7pm. Well, I'm finally updating it today. Today was not really an eventful day after all. "John Avery", "SpirAlvin" and I actually went to VivoCity for a short while before finally deciding to go the usual internet cafe at Bugis. Upon reaching there, we found out that there was no space for three. Then we went to the arcade just next to the cafe and started playing a game. After that, I played Time Crisis 4 myself. You know something? I actually lost two out of three lives during the PROLOGUE!! What impressive statistics for a professional Time Crisis 4 gamer like me who had finished the game without help with just one try before. The real reason behind my demise twice was the problem with the pedal and the gun itself. I did my best and held out till the last stage area 1 then a helicopter took my last life. Damn! Following the arcade, we strolled to Suntec City and had our usual dinner there. There... What we discussed was absolute EPIC. I don't wanna talk about it here as I might really get into trouble. Alright, enough with the stuff I did. The main reason for posting is about this "SpirAlvin". Alright, this guy was the friend I was referring to in Spooky Feed #17. This guy finally decided to ask her out for a date after hearing my advice and stuff. This guy told me that there's six other people in his school telling him that "she already likes him". I don't like the tone of that as it could be just teasing. Really hope he would not get rejected...
Haven't been updating my blog for the past few days. I'm either too busy, or simply forgot to update it or too exhausted. There's actually a day when I was so exhausted from my basketball match and stuff that I slept at 7pm. Well, I'm finally updating it today. Today was not really an eventful day after all. "John Avery", "SpirAlvin" and I actually went to VivoCity for a short while before finally deciding to go the usual internet cafe at Bugis. Upon reaching there, we found out that there was no space for three. Then we went to the arcade just next to the cafe and started playing a game. After that, I played Time Crisis 4 myself. You know something? I actually lost two out of three lives during the PROLOGUE!! What impressive statistics for a professional Time Crisis 4 gamer like me who had finished the game without help with just one try before. The real reason behind my demise twice was the problem with the pedal and the gun itself. I did my best and held out till the last stage area 1 then a helicopter took my last life. Damn! Following the arcade, we strolled to Suntec City and had our usual dinner there. There... What we discussed was absolute EPIC. I don't wanna talk about it here as I might really get into trouble. Alright, enough with the stuff I did. The main reason for posting is about this "SpirAlvin". Alright, this guy was the friend I was referring to in Spooky Feed #17. This guy finally decided to ask her out for a date after hearing my advice and stuff. This guy told me that there's six other people in his school telling him that "she already likes him". I don't like the tone of that as it could be just teasing. Really hope he would not get rejected...
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
Spooky Feed #19
Your original unselfish choice fills you now with selfishness. - Leto's Inner Voices
Got back the results of Chemistry and A-Math today. Just barely passed Chemistry: Already a joyous moment for me. Then... Failed A-Math badly. *Sigh* Forget it, forget it... Let's talk about something else. During recess today, me and my usual friends grouped up together and chatted like we did, then the subject came to love. I went quiet (sucking from a straw to the packet drink), while the rest targeted Bryan Cheo. Gavin who was sooooo 'successful' in wooing a girl and sooooo arrogant that he did it like it was nothing, tried to 'impart his skills' to Bryan. It was mentioned that Bryan's special someone recently kinda broke up, and Gavin and the others were strongly persuading him to "occupy the space while it's empty". Bryan rejected the idea strongly even after so much persuasion. Then there begin where Chong Jin muttered "Bryan, your ValVal". Bryan was annoyed at that remark for a couple of seconds until he looked at me (I recall that I was looking down and drinking my drink). As I was looking down, I didn't see any fingers pointed at me when Chong Jin remarked that keyword a second time. "Oh ya, BX yours also right?" Bryan commented. I simply nodded my head. At that time, Yi Da pointed out that my case was a failure while Gavin's was highly successful. I was reminded of my painful memories once again. After the entire discussion, Bryan and I had a 1-on-1 talk. Having been in the same situation once, I understood why he didn't want to just "occupy the space while it's empty".
"You didn't want to, coz' you think you ain't good enough for her right?"
"Ya." Bryan replied.
"You could improve yourself. However, the opportunity may already have left you." I told him.
The words I spoke, were the exact words that I've told myself at least half a decade ago. My second sentence, was exactly what happened to me. It was a unselfish choice when I chose to not confess... It was unselfish when I found out that she had a boyfriend and yet gave them my blessings silently. It was unselfish when I discovered that they broke up and I did nothing but worry about her feelings and emotions. It was unselfish when I found out that they patched up and swallowed my feelings once again. I tried my best to let go of you, But I can't...
Got back the results of Chemistry and A-Math today. Just barely passed Chemistry: Already a joyous moment for me. Then... Failed A-Math badly. *Sigh* Forget it, forget it... Let's talk about something else. During recess today, me and my usual friends grouped up together and chatted like we did, then the subject came to love. I went quiet (sucking from a straw to the packet drink), while the rest targeted Bryan Cheo. Gavin who was sooooo 'successful' in wooing a girl and sooooo arrogant that he did it like it was nothing, tried to 'impart his skills' to Bryan. It was mentioned that Bryan's special someone recently kinda broke up, and Gavin and the others were strongly persuading him to "occupy the space while it's empty". Bryan rejected the idea strongly even after so much persuasion. Then there begin where Chong Jin muttered "Bryan, your ValVal". Bryan was annoyed at that remark for a couple of seconds until he looked at me (I recall that I was looking down and drinking my drink). As I was looking down, I didn't see any fingers pointed at me when Chong Jin remarked that keyword a second time. "Oh ya, BX yours also right?" Bryan commented. I simply nodded my head. At that time, Yi Da pointed out that my case was a failure while Gavin's was highly successful. I was reminded of my painful memories once again. After the entire discussion, Bryan and I had a 1-on-1 talk. Having been in the same situation once, I understood why he didn't want to just "occupy the space while it's empty".
"You didn't want to, coz' you think you ain't good enough for her right?"
"Ya." Bryan replied.
"You could improve yourself. However, the opportunity may already have left you." I told him.
The words I spoke, were the exact words that I've told myself at least half a decade ago. My second sentence, was exactly what happened to me. It was a unselfish choice when I chose to not confess... It was unselfish when I found out that she had a boyfriend and yet gave them my blessings silently. It was unselfish when I discovered that they broke up and I did nothing but worry about her feelings and emotions. It was unselfish when I found out that they patched up and swallowed my feelings once again. I tried my best to let go of you, But I can't...
Monday, October 18, 2010
Spooky Feed #18
The most persistent principles of the universe were accident and error. - The last thought of Kynes before he died of a dust whirlpool caused by a pre-mass spice gas explosion.
Time sure flies. I recall posting last Thursday on "Tomorrow is the FIRST day of checking EOY exam scripts", and here I am now posting on "Tomorrow is the LAST day of checking EOY scripts". Alright, let's talk about what happened the first two days first. I got back my Mother Tongue paper (Chinese) and scored above average (However, although I scored only ABOVE AVERAGE, I kinda pwned almost if not the entire school. This kind of things often happen during my secondary school life.), got back my Combined Humanities paper and failed the overall by 2%. I'm hoping that the other scores from the last semester and term would pull me up to passing grade though. Today, I've got back Physics paper and I made it!!! I've passed my Physics!! Finally! Then Geography paper comes next, and my intuition already told me that I wouldn't pass and I didn't. Then English Language is up next: Results show that I've successfully passed the important subject. After that I got back the E-Math paper. E-Math results were weird. Paper 2 was supposed to be a lot tougher than Paper 1 (which almost the entire Secondary 3 cohort thought was fairly easy: I meant Paper 1) then many scored a lot higher in Paper 1 then in Paper 2. But my case is weird. I actually failed Paper 1 by 2 marks!! Yet I kinda pwned quite a number of people by scoring 71/100 by my Paper 2. How could someone score higher for the tougher paper than the a lot easier one? That's me. It was due to several errors and careless mistakes that I failed my paper 1... Tomorrow is coming up fast: We are gonna get back our Chemistry and A-Math Papers tomorrow. Hope that I did secure a satisfactory score in both papers.
Time sure flies. I recall posting last Thursday on "Tomorrow is the FIRST day of checking EOY exam scripts", and here I am now posting on "Tomorrow is the LAST day of checking EOY scripts". Alright, let's talk about what happened the first two days first. I got back my Mother Tongue paper (Chinese) and scored above average (However, although I scored only ABOVE AVERAGE, I kinda pwned almost if not the entire school. This kind of things often happen during my secondary school life.), got back my Combined Humanities paper and failed the overall by 2%. I'm hoping that the other scores from the last semester and term would pull me up to passing grade though. Today, I've got back Physics paper and I made it!!! I've passed my Physics!! Finally! Then Geography paper comes next, and my intuition already told me that I wouldn't pass and I didn't. Then English Language is up next: Results show that I've successfully passed the important subject. After that I got back the E-Math paper. E-Math results were weird. Paper 2 was supposed to be a lot tougher than Paper 1 (which almost the entire Secondary 3 cohort thought was fairly easy: I meant Paper 1) then many scored a lot higher in Paper 1 then in Paper 2. But my case is weird. I actually failed Paper 1 by 2 marks!! Yet I kinda pwned quite a number of people by scoring 71/100 by my Paper 2. How could someone score higher for the tougher paper than the a lot easier one? That's me. It was due to several errors and careless mistakes that I failed my paper 1... Tomorrow is coming up fast: We are gonna get back our Chemistry and A-Math Papers tomorrow. Hope that I did secure a satisfactory score in both papers.
Sunday, October 17, 2010
Spooky Feed #17
Anything outside yourself, this you can see and apply your logic to it. But it's a human trait that when we encounter personal problems, these things most deeply personal are the most difficult to bring out for our logic to scan. We tend to flounder around, blaming everything but the actual, deep-seated thing that's really chewing on us. - Jessica speaking to Thufir Hawat
I'm not gonna write anything on what happened today. It's quite irrelevant anyways. If anything, I wanna write about something else. I'm gonna write about a friend. There's this friend trying to woo a girl that he likes. He kinda have difficulties in the wooing process. He seeked advice from me, which I gave. After some discussion, he decided to buy the girl a pendant as a birthday gift. As his friend, I've advised that he not present her the gift yet, maybe next year when they have a stable foundation in their relationship so that the gift may be announced as a wooing gift. After much consideration, he decided to continue to give the pendant to her. It just so happens that he gave her the pendant right before the 1-week September school holidays. On a day nearing the end of the short school holidays, I've told him that after the school holidays, something either positive or negative is gonna happen to him due to his actions. The first two weeks seemed fine and "nothing" sorta happened. However, recently the girl seems to be ignoring and avoiding him. Naturally, He'd feel disappointed and down. He's considering giving up wooing her. He just seems to blame a lot of stuffs, including himself. Should I, as a friend, tell him? I'm not sure myself.
I'm not gonna write anything on what happened today. It's quite irrelevant anyways. If anything, I wanna write about something else. I'm gonna write about a friend. There's this friend trying to woo a girl that he likes. He kinda have difficulties in the wooing process. He seeked advice from me, which I gave. After some discussion, he decided to buy the girl a pendant as a birthday gift. As his friend, I've advised that he not present her the gift yet, maybe next year when they have a stable foundation in their relationship so that the gift may be announced as a wooing gift. After much consideration, he decided to continue to give the pendant to her. It just so happens that he gave her the pendant right before the 1-week September school holidays. On a day nearing the end of the short school holidays, I've told him that after the school holidays, something either positive or negative is gonna happen to him due to his actions. The first two weeks seemed fine and "nothing" sorta happened. However, recently the girl seems to be ignoring and avoiding him. Naturally, He'd feel disappointed and down. He's considering giving up wooing her. He just seems to blame a lot of stuffs, including himself. Should I, as a friend, tell him? I'm not sure myself.
Thursday, October 14, 2010
Spooky Feed #16
It occurred to Paul then that he had seen his own dead body along countless reaches of the time web, but never once had he seen his moment of death. - The Collected Sayings of Muad'dib by the Princess Irulan
Tomorrow is the first day of the checking of End-Of-Year exam scripts. A long time before the exams, before the preparations for the exams, before the final school term of this year even started, even before the September school holidays, just right after the minute that my father had told me "Find a way to catch up your results yourself" when I had shown him my Term 3 result slip, I have already have that vision: That vision of me sitting among the ranks of students sitting according to their classes, waiting... For the papers that we have written and drawn on during our exam periods... The papers we've worked so hard for. I've been through the process before, and I will go through it once more... For the last time this year, I am getting back the papers tomorrow, next Monday and Tuesday. Excited? Nope. I'd rather not go through it. Why? Because getting back the papers meant either having the glory of scoring high and exceeding your own expectations or huge disappointment in yourself and the results and sorrow. Did Harry felt the same when he saw the owls that brought his, Ron's and Hermione's O.W.Ls results? I'm already anticipating what's gonna happen tomorrow and what scores I will get, but I assume it's negative to a large extent. Been playing basketball and games hard to tire myself out and not think about that fateful day which has just about 3 more hours to go. However, what's to come will eventually come.... Might as well get it over and done with.
Tomorrow is the first day of the checking of End-Of-Year exam scripts. A long time before the exams, before the preparations for the exams, before the final school term of this year even started, even before the September school holidays, just right after the minute that my father had told me "Find a way to catch up your results yourself" when I had shown him my Term 3 result slip, I have already have that vision: That vision of me sitting among the ranks of students sitting according to their classes, waiting... For the papers that we have written and drawn on during our exam periods... The papers we've worked so hard for. I've been through the process before, and I will go through it once more... For the last time this year, I am getting back the papers tomorrow, next Monday and Tuesday. Excited? Nope. I'd rather not go through it. Why? Because getting back the papers meant either having the glory of scoring high and exceeding your own expectations or huge disappointment in yourself and the results and sorrow. Did Harry felt the same when he saw the owls that brought his, Ron's and Hermione's O.W.Ls results? I'm already anticipating what's gonna happen tomorrow and what scores I will get, but I assume it's negative to a large extent. Been playing basketball and games hard to tire myself out and not think about that fateful day which has just about 3 more hours to go. However, what's to come will eventually come.... Might as well get it over and done with.
Monday, October 11, 2010
Spooky Feed #15
Any road followed precisely to its end leads precisely nowhere. Climb the mountain just a little bit to test that it's a mountain. From the top of the mountain, you cannot see the mountain. - from Muad'Dib: Family Commentaries by the Princess Irulan
Finally the exams are over... Maybe except the Oral Examinations on Wednesday but who actually seriously study for ORAL?? Maybe practicing reading a newspaper article and forming thoughts, reflections and suggestions in your head helps but... Never mind, anyway the main papers are officially over. Now I could finally take a breather, rest and relax... For a while. Why? Cause' the end of exams meant the start of getting back our results and stuff. Yeah, getting back our RESULTS seems to be the problem. Why? Cause' our results... I don't think they will be decent enough even for me, let alone my parents. *sigh* Never mind, I guess I better skip this topic for a while. In order to make an official retreat from our tiring revision for our exams, Me and my usual basketball mates went to the basketball court near my home and started taking shots and having some matches. It was quite fun today, just exhausted...
Finally the exams are over... Maybe except the Oral Examinations on Wednesday but who actually seriously study for ORAL?? Maybe practicing reading a newspaper article and forming thoughts, reflections and suggestions in your head helps but... Never mind, anyway the main papers are officially over. Now I could finally take a breather, rest and relax... For a while. Why? Cause' the end of exams meant the start of getting back our results and stuff. Yeah, getting back our RESULTS seems to be the problem. Why? Cause' our results... I don't think they will be decent enough even for me, let alone my parents. *sigh* Never mind, I guess I better skip this topic for a while. In order to make an official retreat from our tiring revision for our exams, Me and my usual basketball mates went to the basketball court near my home and started taking shots and having some matches. It was quite fun today, just exhausted...
Friday, October 8, 2010
Spooky Feed #14
It is said that the only fear we cannot correct is the fear of our own mistakes. - Stilgar
Finished my Physics paper today. Hmm... Perhaps 'finished' is not quite the word. Technically I didn't 'finish' the paper, I left out some questions due to time and... forgetting the methods to completing the questions. I'm pretty sure that I made quite a lot of mistakes in the paper... But I guess it's all over, no use brooding over it. I wanna talk more about something else. I wanna talk about mistakes. Yeah sure I've started out with my mistakes in my examinations, however the mistakes I wanna talk about is of a different kind. I meant mistakes in life. Some examples? Maybe like a mother who didn't keep her young child in her sight and an accident took her child's life away? Or perhaps a guy who didn't stay faithful to his girl, which eventually made the girl leave him and he now regrets it. People make mistakes, and yes, don't look at anyone or have someone else in your mind, I meant everyone, that's you and me. When they made a mistake, they probably would regret it, and seek of ways to correct their mistakes. Like you do corrections for the mistakes you make in school, so that you would realise your mistake and get the correct answer for the same type of questions in the future. Same in this case, we make a mistake, we learn our mistake and we try to correct it, so that we would not make the same mistake again. But some mistakes... They just couldn't be corrected. Just like the examples I've given above. Once you make a serious mistake, you may lose something or even someone important to you. Trust, Pride, a family member, a loved one. You may realise your mistake in the end, but once some things are lost... it will be forever lost....
Finished my Physics paper today. Hmm... Perhaps 'finished' is not quite the word. Technically I didn't 'finish' the paper, I left out some questions due to time and... forgetting the methods to completing the questions. I'm pretty sure that I made quite a lot of mistakes in the paper... But I guess it's all over, no use brooding over it. I wanna talk more about something else. I wanna talk about mistakes. Yeah sure I've started out with my mistakes in my examinations, however the mistakes I wanna talk about is of a different kind. I meant mistakes in life. Some examples? Maybe like a mother who didn't keep her young child in her sight and an accident took her child's life away? Or perhaps a guy who didn't stay faithful to his girl, which eventually made the girl leave him and he now regrets it. People make mistakes, and yes, don't look at anyone or have someone else in your mind, I meant everyone, that's you and me. When they made a mistake, they probably would regret it, and seek of ways to correct their mistakes. Like you do corrections for the mistakes you make in school, so that you would realise your mistake and get the correct answer for the same type of questions in the future. Same in this case, we make a mistake, we learn our mistake and we try to correct it, so that we would not make the same mistake again. But some mistakes... They just couldn't be corrected. Just like the examples I've given above. Once you make a serious mistake, you may lose something or even someone important to you. Trust, Pride, a family member, a loved one. You may realise your mistake in the end, but once some things are lost... it will be forever lost....
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
Spooky Feed #13
Do not count what you have lost. Count only what you still have. - Zensunni Sutra of the First Order
Finished both Languages paper, Combined Humanities, and Elementary Maths. I felt that I may have done below expectations for a few papers... But never mind, there's still more papers to complete. Tomorrow I'm having Chemistry and Geography papers. I admit that I could never score in Geography, and my Chemistry ain't that stable too. But I'm gonna try my best to revise and absorb whatever I can during this last few hours left. I don't wanna disappoint my parents again... I have to improve my scores. I may have already lost several marks in the first few paper but I'm not giving up. Like I'd said, I'm gonna bring the Burning Legion down on your heads...
Finished both Languages paper, Combined Humanities, and Elementary Maths. I felt that I may have done below expectations for a few papers... But never mind, there's still more papers to complete. Tomorrow I'm having Chemistry and Geography papers. I admit that I could never score in Geography, and my Chemistry ain't that stable too. But I'm gonna try my best to revise and absorb whatever I can during this last few hours left. I don't wanna disappoint my parents again... I have to improve my scores. I may have already lost several marks in the first few paper but I'm not giving up. Like I'd said, I'm gonna bring the Burning Legion down on your heads...
Saturday, October 2, 2010
Spooky Feed #12
If wishes were fishes, we'd all cast nets. - Gurney Halleck
People do wish right? What do we all actually wish for? Some wish for good results, wish for good-looks, wish for unique abilities, wish for a good career, wish to reunite with friends they miss so much, wish to become someone special, wish for love and care, wish for this, wish for that... Why do we wish anyway? 'Course we hope that our wishes would come true. Remember the process where the birthday boy/girl makes a wish then blow out the flames of the candles on their birthday cake? Making a wish is magical, you simply close your eyes then make a wish in your heart, sincerely hoping that your wish would come true, because you really need it or really want it to. Yet some wishes just won't come true. I recall a man wishing for world peace, where people could finally understand one another, no more conflicts and no more killings. He didn't just mean peace between countries and states, he meant peace among every person in this world. He didn't just mean no more conflicts among different groups of people, he meant no more conflict among every single person. Like a student not having a conflict with another. Tiny for a conflict if you actually see the globe. Everyone knows that that wish did not come true, but only few did seriously work towards completing the wish. Sad huh? Or did anyone even care?
People do wish right? What do we all actually wish for? Some wish for good results, wish for good-looks, wish for unique abilities, wish for a good career, wish to reunite with friends they miss so much, wish to become someone special, wish for love and care, wish for this, wish for that... Why do we wish anyway? 'Course we hope that our wishes would come true. Remember the process where the birthday boy/girl makes a wish then blow out the flames of the candles on their birthday cake? Making a wish is magical, you simply close your eyes then make a wish in your heart, sincerely hoping that your wish would come true, because you really need it or really want it to. Yet some wishes just won't come true. I recall a man wishing for world peace, where people could finally understand one another, no more conflicts and no more killings. He didn't just mean peace between countries and states, he meant peace among every person in this world. He didn't just mean no more conflicts among different groups of people, he meant no more conflict among every single person. Like a student not having a conflict with another. Tiny for a conflict if you actually see the globe. Everyone knows that that wish did not come true, but only few did seriously work towards completing the wish. Sad huh? Or did anyone even care?
Thursday, September 30, 2010
Spooky Feed #11
"Victorious warriors win first and then go to war, while defeated warriors go to war first and then seek to win."
- Sun-Tzu, The Art of War
The exams are tomorrow. I'm too tired to study for it anyways... However, I got to. The results of the class tests I did this and last week are completely revealed to us today. I've just passed my Geography Class Test and Chinese(I've expected it already even though my scores previously were not bad), failed my History, Scored adequately for Physics and Chemistry and scored well for both my E and A-Maths, English and Social Studies. Quite okay la... Except that I've to buck up on my Sciences and Humanities... I will give my absolute best for the oncoming exams. I've said that I would declare a crusade against the exams... I am declaring it now. With the Burning Legion by my side...
- Sun-Tzu, The Art of War
The exams are tomorrow. I'm too tired to study for it anyways... However, I got to. The results of the class tests I did this and last week are completely revealed to us today. I've just passed my Geography Class Test and Chinese(I've expected it already even though my scores previously were not bad), failed my History, Scored adequately for Physics and Chemistry and scored well for both my E and A-Maths, English and Social Studies. Quite okay la... Except that I've to buck up on my Sciences and Humanities... I will give my absolute best for the oncoming exams. I've said that I would declare a crusade against the exams... I am declaring it now. With the Burning Legion by my side...
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
Spooky Feed #10
"Students nowadays are so clueless", the math professor complains to a colleague. "Yesterday, a student came to my office hours and wanted to know if General Calculus was a Roman war hero..." - Maths Jokes
Today was quite a day. After lessons and stuff, I went to the usual basketball court near Gavin and Chong Jin's house with them and Bryan Cheo to play basketball. 4 2-on-2 matches... The pair that got me(the teams were re-shuffled after every match. Me + Bryan(won 7-4), Me + Chong Jin, Me + Gavin, Me + Bryan again(Lost 6-7)) won 3 times, lost 1. I'm the official M-V-P of all the matches together. Scoring, assisting, blocking, rebounding... Yeah... However, there's an A-Math test tomorrow and I need to study even though I feel tired and feverish. And there are still homework to be done... *sigh* I really hope that the exams would end soon so that I could focus on B-Ball, Starcraft 2 and stuff... But I want the marvellous results even more...
Today was quite a day. After lessons and stuff, I went to the usual basketball court near Gavin and Chong Jin's house with them and Bryan Cheo to play basketball. 4 2-on-2 matches... The pair that got me(the teams were re-shuffled after every match. Me + Bryan(won 7-4), Me + Chong Jin, Me + Gavin, Me + Bryan again(Lost 6-7)) won 3 times, lost 1. I'm the official M-V-P of all the matches together. Scoring, assisting, blocking, rebounding... Yeah... However, there's an A-Math test tomorrow and I need to study even though I feel tired and feverish. And there are still homework to be done... *sigh* I really hope that the exams would end soon so that I could focus on B-Ball, Starcraft 2 and stuff... But I want the marvellous results even more...
Saturday, September 25, 2010
Spooky Feed #9
I never thought it would be easy to serve God. I just didn't think it would be this hard. - Hwi Noree
Today is certainly not a good day. First up, it's my mum again. I don't wanna talk about it. Then the outing with Alvin is supposed to be fun and yet... Partly, it's my fault. Playing in an arcade is not what Alvin needs or what he really desired. Then, the bad stuff happened. Alvin's... Never mind. I really felt that the day's totally wasted and I really hate it. How much must I show mercy and forgiveness to someone who should actually understand mercy more than me but it is certainly the other way round. Mercy... This word have been appearing on my mind every moment I am furious at something or someone. Mercy... Forgive... Love... For how long more? Yet I would always think of how God sacrificed his son to die on the cross... God have shown mercy to the sinners... He did not send legions of angels on those sinners who mistreated his only son which did nothing to deserve that kind of pain. Every now and then I am confronted by the conflict in my mind. I am but a human.
Today is certainly not a good day. First up, it's my mum again. I don't wanna talk about it. Then the outing with Alvin is supposed to be fun and yet... Partly, it's my fault. Playing in an arcade is not what Alvin needs or what he really desired. Then, the bad stuff happened. Alvin's... Never mind. I really felt that the day's totally wasted and I really hate it. How much must I show mercy and forgiveness to someone who should actually understand mercy more than me but it is certainly the other way round. Mercy... This word have been appearing on my mind every moment I am furious at something or someone. Mercy... Forgive... Love... For how long more? Yet I would always think of how God sacrificed his son to die on the cross... God have shown mercy to the sinners... He did not send legions of angels on those sinners who mistreated his only son which did nothing to deserve that kind of pain. Every now and then I am confronted by the conflict in my mind. I am but a human.
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
Spooky Feed #8
Do not be trapped by the need to achieve anything. This way, you achieve everything. - Hayt, the ghola
The class tests are on! Having 3 class tests TODAY was a giant feat, trying to study for all 3. I did my best, hopefully enough to pass Geography as I've got not much problems with History and Chemistry. The exams are catching up soon. I can't keep my 'excitement' down, man. I really need to score well this time and shut my mum up. I believe that I can do it... Provided the paper set is not what we had during our last common test: Shit. However, I'm not gonna be trapped by the exams. I am just gonna live my life as always. I will achieve it.
The class tests are on! Having 3 class tests TODAY was a giant feat, trying to study for all 3. I did my best, hopefully enough to pass Geography as I've got not much problems with History and Chemistry. The exams are catching up soon. I can't keep my 'excitement' down, man. I really need to score well this time and shut my mum up. I believe that I can do it... Provided the paper set is not what we had during our last common test: Shit. However, I'm not gonna be trapped by the exams. I am just gonna live my life as always. I will achieve it.
Saturday, September 18, 2010
Spooky Feed #7
No one is ever completely forced into his position in life. We all have opportunities to take different paths. - Conversations with Muad'Dib by the Princess Irulan
7 is my lucky number and therefore one of my two favourite numbers, the other being 13. Since this is the 7th post (not counting the 1st which is just... irrelevant), it should be quite interesting for some. Different people take different paths in their life, whether in terms of jobs, decisions, religion etc. Opportunities to change the path we are taking comes by occasionally. It's our decisions that shapes our future. Decision to study hard or slack around, decision to erase an addiction or continue with it, decision to forgive or bear a grudge, decision to make someone your enemy or a friend, decision to trust or not trust, decision to take this course or the other, decision to love or to hate, decisions of many things. A lot of times, if you don't go one way, it doesn't mean that you went to the complete opposite. Like for example: If you don't take someone as a true friend, it doesn't mean that you take him as an enemy. We all can choose to take different paths and take different views of something. We don't have to stick to one path. We are free to go on another as the paths are abundant. We are not forced to our positions in life, we all have opportunities to switch paths. And the decisions we make when we stand at crossroads are what we will comment on as we look back, either regret or glad that we have made that decision. Pray that your's the latter. Decisions shapes our future... and us.
7 is my lucky number and therefore one of my two favourite numbers, the other being 13. Since this is the 7th post (not counting the 1st which is just... irrelevant), it should be quite interesting for some. Different people take different paths in their life, whether in terms of jobs, decisions, religion etc. Opportunities to change the path we are taking comes by occasionally. It's our decisions that shapes our future. Decision to study hard or slack around, decision to erase an addiction or continue with it, decision to forgive or bear a grudge, decision to make someone your enemy or a friend, decision to trust or not trust, decision to take this course or the other, decision to love or to hate, decisions of many things. A lot of times, if you don't go one way, it doesn't mean that you went to the complete opposite. Like for example: If you don't take someone as a true friend, it doesn't mean that you take him as an enemy. We all can choose to take different paths and take different views of something. We don't have to stick to one path. We are free to go on another as the paths are abundant. We are not forced to our positions in life, we all have opportunities to switch paths. And the decisions we make when we stand at crossroads are what we will comment on as we look back, either regret or glad that we have made that decision. Pray that your's the latter. Decisions shapes our future... and us.
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
Spooky Feed #6
Muad'Dib learned rapidly because his first training was in how to learn. And the first lesson of all was the basic trust that he could learn. It's shocking to find how many people do not believe they can learn, and how many more believe learning to be difficult. Muad'Dib knew that every experience carries its lesson. - from The Humanity of Muad'Dib by the Princess Irulan
I'm fired up in Physics and Elementary Mathematics these few days, learning and practising them as much as I could, putting in extra effort, doing extra work. I really hope that my efforts would be paid off in the coming End-of-Year Examinations. I find myself falling in love in E Math again... It's such a good feeling. I hope it would last... I really hate graphs, modulus functions and anything that gotta do with graphs. I wished I could say the same for Additional Mathematics though. Also, I find myself beginning to once again have the habit of having afternoon naps. Just too tired after school. Perhaps the naps could be pretty advantageous to me. Like Chief Mendez said to John: rest can be used as a weapon. It could be as deadly as a pistol if used right. Something like that.
I'm fired up in Physics and Elementary Mathematics these few days, learning and practising them as much as I could, putting in extra effort, doing extra work. I really hope that my efforts would be paid off in the coming End-of-Year Examinations. I find myself falling in love in E Math again... It's such a good feeling. I hope it would last... I really hate graphs, modulus functions and anything that gotta do with graphs. I wished I could say the same for Additional Mathematics though. Also, I find myself beginning to once again have the habit of having afternoon naps. Just too tired after school. Perhaps the naps could be pretty advantageous to me. Like Chief Mendez said to John: rest can be used as a weapon. It could be as deadly as a pistol if used right. Something like that.
Monday, September 13, 2010
Spooky Feed #5
A beginning is the time for taking the most delicate care that the balances are correct. - from Manual of Muad'Dib by the Princess Irulan
School has began again. This time, it's Term 4. The EOY Examinations will be on our throats soon. Luckily, time is on our side. Well, at least it's on my side, even though it's only a little. Now balancing work and rest seemed to be as more difficult than balancing chemical equations for me. However, I'm making an effort. I'm not gonna give up. I'm promised to bring the Burning Legion with me to massacre those idiotic questions hiding within those exam papers, ambushing me every now and then during the last Common Test. However, I started today with some difficulties. A bad omen perhaps?
School has began again. This time, it's Term 4. The EOY Examinations will be on our throats soon. Luckily, time is on our side. Well, at least it's on my side, even though it's only a little. Now balancing work and rest seemed to be as more difficult than balancing chemical equations for me. However, I'm making an effort. I'm not gonna give up. I'm promised to bring the Burning Legion with me to massacre those idiotic questions hiding within those exam papers, ambushing me every now and then during the last Common Test. However, I started today with some difficulties. A bad omen perhaps?
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
Spooky Feed #4
Four things cannot be hidden — love, smoke, a pillar of fire and a man striding across the open bled. - Hayt
Today was a fun day. Me and my fellow teammates went ahead with the Solar Racer Competition Day 2. It was raining heavily and we couldn't go on as planned as we lack solar energy. So all the competitors have to use battery-charged remote-controlled cars. Edwin Wong was really funny with his antics during the competition. We didn't win though, due to a noob car and didn't have the chance for a rematch. But never mind, the fun part comes when Mr.See came by. 9 people including me and him (the driver) squeezed onto his 5-seater Lancer EX. That was EPIC. Then due to the contract he signed, we get to eat at Pizza Hut, his treat. Truth or Dare then starts. All the boys there excluding Nicolas got sabo-ed with questions of girls they are accused of liking. Well, though I think I'm the only one being accused as the others seemed right. However, thoughts keep on flashing in and out of my mind. Thoughts I thought to have been suppressed since two years ago. I've got this funny feeling again. A funny feeling for you. Once more. Maybe I got to suppress this feeling again. Cause' I have this feeling for someone else already.
Today was a fun day. Me and my fellow teammates went ahead with the Solar Racer Competition Day 2. It was raining heavily and we couldn't go on as planned as we lack solar energy. So all the competitors have to use battery-charged remote-controlled cars. Edwin Wong was really funny with his antics during the competition. We didn't win though, due to a noob car and didn't have the chance for a rematch. But never mind, the fun part comes when Mr.See came by. 9 people including me and him (the driver) squeezed onto his 5-seater Lancer EX. That was EPIC. Then due to the contract he signed, we get to eat at Pizza Hut, his treat. Truth or Dare then starts. All the boys there excluding Nicolas got sabo-ed with questions of girls they are accused of liking. Well, though I think I'm the only one being accused as the others seemed right. However, thoughts keep on flashing in and out of my mind. Thoughts I thought to have been suppressed since two years ago. I've got this funny feeling again. A funny feeling for you. Once more. Maybe I got to suppress this feeling again. Cause' I have this feeling for someone else already.
Sunday, September 5, 2010
Spooky Feed #3
There will be a time when loud-mouthed, incompetent people seem to be getting the best of you. When that happens, you only have to be patient and wait for them to self destruct. It never fails. - Richard Rybolt
Yesterday night (actually just a few hours ago) was a fun night. Me and my friends went to Sembawang Park to celebrate one of our friend's birthday. We had a BBQ there. Once again, the problem starts when it drizzles then rain. But soon, the sky clears once more and we began the fire-starting. Yes, you would have guessed it if you know me well enough. Once again, the problems lies with the fire-starting. From 7:20pm we tried all the way till about 10pm+. It was due to my mistake in forgetting the aluminium foil and the double fire-starter tactic. Also, it was due to incompetency by some other people. However, I don't blame them. All human makes mistakes and that includes me. However, with some assistance from my friends, WE got the job done (most credit goes to me though, hahas). Fire-starting needs patience, skill and experience, and not everybody has that. But we can learn. This quote works though, a lot of times for me.
Yesterday night (actually just a few hours ago) was a fun night. Me and my friends went to Sembawang Park to celebrate one of our friend's birthday. We had a BBQ there. Once again, the problem starts when it drizzles then rain. But soon, the sky clears once more and we began the fire-starting. Yes, you would have guessed it if you know me well enough. Once again, the problems lies with the fire-starting. From 7:20pm we tried all the way till about 10pm+. It was due to my mistake in forgetting the aluminium foil and the double fire-starter tactic. Also, it was due to incompetency by some other people. However, I don't blame them. All human makes mistakes and that includes me. However, with some assistance from my friends, WE got the job done (most credit goes to me though, hahas). Fire-starting needs patience, skill and experience, and not everybody has that. But we can learn. This quote works though, a lot of times for me.
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Spooky Feed #2
Once you have learnt to love, you will have learnt to live. - Anonymous
Today's the day. The day where we met 2 years ago, and a year ago. We met at the exact same place. I could remember because this day is the Teacher's Day Eve, we were celebrating our class reunion and Teacher's Day on those two days. I could still remember what you were wearing on those two occasions. It seemed so vivid. However, I didn't see you today. Not at our Primary School, not at the place we met on those two occasions... But I know where you are at today though. Ever since we left our Primary School to journey into Secondary School life, I don't have much of a chance to see you. You see, this is how it goes. When We're Sec 1, I've met you only once that year, and that's the occasion I'm talking about. Sec 2, I've met you twice, one of 'em is today last year. We're in Sec 3 now, could we have the chance to meet 3 times? I've already met you twice this year. I am waiting for the third. And I was hoping that it would be today like 2 years ago and last year. But nope, it's not today. Perhaps some other time this year though. I look forward to that, though it may not even happen. But I'll be waiting.
Today's the day. The day where we met 2 years ago, and a year ago. We met at the exact same place. I could remember because this day is the Teacher's Day Eve, we were celebrating our class reunion and Teacher's Day on those two days. I could still remember what you were wearing on those two occasions. It seemed so vivid. However, I didn't see you today. Not at our Primary School, not at the place we met on those two occasions... But I know where you are at today though. Ever since we left our Primary School to journey into Secondary School life, I don't have much of a chance to see you. You see, this is how it goes. When We're Sec 1, I've met you only once that year, and that's the occasion I'm talking about. Sec 2, I've met you twice, one of 'em is today last year. We're in Sec 3 now, could we have the chance to meet 3 times? I've already met you twice this year. I am waiting for the third. And I was hoping that it would be today like 2 years ago and last year. But nope, it's not today. Perhaps some other time this year though. I look forward to that, though it may not even happen. But I'll be waiting.
Monday, August 30, 2010
Spooky Feed #1
I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain. - Bene Gesserit Litany Against Fear
My results are out... Right after each examination, I could already grasp what scores will I get this time round. I'm gonna fail. Badly. And I did. Now, in order for me to move on, I need to give my parents to sign my result slip and erase my guilt so that I can entirely focus on my EOY exams. But fear had kept me from doing so... Fear of being scolded, fear of disappointing my parents time and again, fear of being severely punished. But with this quote, I decided to not fear anymore. I'm not going to run away. I will face my fear.
My results are out... Right after each examination, I could already grasp what scores will I get this time round. I'm gonna fail. Badly. And I did. Now, in order for me to move on, I need to give my parents to sign my result slip and erase my guilt so that I can entirely focus on my EOY exams. But fear had kept me from doing so... Fear of being scolded, fear of disappointing my parents time and again, fear of being severely punished. But with this quote, I decided to not fear anymore. I'm not going to run away. I will face my fear.
Sunday, August 29, 2010
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